Changes and New Directions

Don't think this has been an easy trip.... i think it has been the hardest journey of my life in fact. BUT I also believe that this has been the happiest and most rewarding (even with all my whining) God knows that I hate to whine, but sometimes that is all that will relieve the pain and frustration that the universe dishes you.

My Miracle that is named Rick....... well remember that total selfish, drunk, homeless, violent, guy named Rick? I went to Vegas 3 weeks ago (without a penny to my name) got him out of jail (one of his many drunk tresspass charges) and put him on a Greyhound Bus to Texas (thanks to his AA Buddies for the Bus tickets) we rode that bus for 26 hours and he had not bathed in 2 months! What a stinky trip!!!!!! He nearly got us kicked off the bus, by smuggleing beer on board!!!!!! But we got here..... in the past few weeks I found that I was right... Rick and I were meant to be together even if it is just to help other people. We seem to bring something to the table at every stop in the road..... we saved a bunny last night.

just in this week ..... Rick is working with a great guy out of prison that has been bangin meth and told him that he is on the road to destruction (but more in a prison dumbass way) I have been working with a young mom that wants a fresh start with her kiddos and she has now been clean 3 days...... you have to realize that this is a huge feat for us since we were both druggies. I refuse to use the word addict, because I do not believe in addiction...... I believe in self destruction. People that believe in their worth as humans have no need to self destruct. and only thru love can you get that self worth back. if you get so busy helping people and loving them then you really don't have time for self destruction. I am planning on writing my doctorate on this very subject.

Well we have still been living from one motel to the next and somethimes only $1 to our name, but God Always makes sure that we have a roof and food in our belly. I don't get to blog much cause we don't have a computer.... don't get me wrong Rick wants to work. but he hasn't been able to get his birth certificate or SS Card. and I refuse to let him slip into old ways by begging... he hates me escorting too. but that is how we have to get by right now. I am exhausted all the time from working 7 days aweek, but it will all work out soon I hope.

We want an RV.... I am in such a need of a home and apparently God needs us to travel around Texas abit! I can't give up my dogs again......that would kill me. I have lost too much following Gods signs. Rick knows that I have to cook and feed people to be complete and I know that it hurts him that I can't.

We are in Waco, my mom is in the hospital for the next few days, i worried that she may die (and it would kill me........ I have lost too much time away from her this year) But I prayed last night and God reassured me that I won't be punished for the time that he made me stay away to grow up. She has test this morning so I must run.

Many Blessing to All
Carla Holland-Strange