Hitchhiking Back to Texas

Well I contacted everyone today, trying to get help to getr Rick out of jail and us back to Texas and as usual no one came thru..... So I am going to have to hitch hike back to Texas this afternoon and try to do all of this long distance. I am really not up to all of this, but I know that I will fail Rick and myself if I stay here in Las Vegas, there is a horrid energy here.
guess I will leave my bags here so that I don't have to try and carry them. God please don't let my mom know I am doing this, she will worry herself sick and I don't need an added burden of that too.

Found Rick

Wow, what a journey.... I am sitting happily in Texas one day and in Vegas searching for Rick within 2 days. His friend called and told me that he caught Rick with a syringe and he had beat him up. well it took me 2 days and walked about 15 miles, but I found Rick, he was skinny, dirty, and his face was all tore up. I spent the morning with him trying to get him to g into the hospital before I took him back to Texas and of course he refused......... then that bitch Sue sent him money for more booze, so I walked away! I then went home and begged God for an intervention... guess what? I got it!!!!!!! Rick got arrested......... YEAAAAAAAAAAA.

Now I have to figure out how to get out of here when he is released (and detoxed) I am so broke since I got here.... not one bit of work. I am hanging on by a thread, but I won't leave him behind. My investor is coming to Texas March 21, to look at the ranch that I am trying to buy for the retreat... I rented the house across the street from it so Rick and I can get some practical training from the owner before we (hopefully) take over. I know that once I get him out of this hell on Earth that he will be fine..... in fact I am taking an AA speaker back with us too that will be there for Ricks recovery.

Now I know alot of you don't understand why I never give up on Rick, it is simple..... God never gave up on me and he sent me to Rick. I follow my signs as most of you know..... I know for a fact that Rick is my soul twin, that we have a huge mission ahead of us, and many blessings will come this year. My visions and prayers are always answered..... it would be nice if our families had helped us... but we are strong and will survive no matter what.

I have not told Rick about my little secret yet, he just thinks that I am gaining weight, even though I have lost 6 pounds since I have been here.

Well people pray that my check gets here soon, so I can get us back to Texas before he gets drunk again.......... Much Love and Many Blessings

And Sue Kessler do not call my phone again...... I know that you want Rick to self destruct.... but I am alot more healthy spiritual energy than you.

2012 Visions and Realities

Have you wondered what 2012 will bring to you? If for some reason you are reading this then you will probably be one of the survivors of 2012. The survivors are the ones that God choose to stay here on Earth after the disasters have rebirthed the World......... There are many signs that will show you the way and the truths that you can find on your own. Try numerology I was born may 2nd 1961 and my full name is carla michele holland do a chart on that and see that I am here to state certain truths..... Some will be saved and will be here many years there after. You will be shocked at who all it is..... these will be people that have been fighting illness most of their lives, put others always before themselves and lived a kinda "jaded naughty bad boy life"

Do you wake up everynight between 2am and 4 am? Do you notice 333 or 11:11 alot? Do you have a huge empathy power? Does your heart pound the days of these disasters? I am now teaching and counseling for what is to begin.... already began in fact with Katrina, Haiti, Chilie and soon Hawaii, Vegas and California. God is not doing these things out of hate, but out of desperation to bring his light to his children. Seems that people forget to thank HIM, share love with HIM........ Just My 2 Cents

doing what is right... Live Oak Resort

well I had decided to let things go about Live Oak Resort and just forget it, UNTIL yesterday when I went into the truenudists chatroom and was verbally bullied by someone from the resort. It made me realize that if I let this go it did not affect just me.... But any woman that went there unescorted, she would be totally unprotected! So I called the best lawyer in Ft Worth yesterday and he jumped on the case.... I have an appt today at 2:30 pm. You see I don't care about money anymore now it is much deeper... it is about doing what is right!

My attorney says that we should get at least 5M and I can get it all out in the open about the septic, the credit card padding, all of the accidents and the land scams. Also about the crooked county that keeps letting it all be covered up. And the local newspaper guy that went in and jacked off on a lady while she was sleeping in her tent........ I got ALL of this information from people that actually live at the resort. They are the reason that I never went thru with this..... but I called them last night and they agreed that it all has to come out. I am not scared anymore.

Danyelle

yeahhhhhhhhhh Danyelle is here..... I have been sooooooooo stressed wondering about how small town weatherford would deal with my ts friend.........they are wonderful!!!!!

All about Carla Holland-Strange

I got to thinking that I got into this blog a year ago to make my transistion easier and use this as a venting tool....... Well a friend who is a great author loves it but says that I need to tell you all about who I am, where I have been and what future that I see....... hmmm ok well lets get started.

My name is Carla Michele Holland Strange, I was born May 2 1961, in Brownwood Texas. first child of Sandra Kaye Petty age 16 and Scottie Wayne Holland 16... two idiot children that decided to do a defiance act towards their parents and get married and get pregnant right away..... then split up in 6 weeks.

I was always an overweight and very timid child, scared of my own shadow. In School I was part of the misfits that was made fun of and humiliated about everyday. I was very smart and loved everything about school.... but still did not fit in anywhere.

I married the first man that paid attention to me, a man that was 9 years my elder. A man that loved women, and had to prove his love of women everyday..... wit any woman that would slow down enough for him to fuck. Every single night of my married life was spent crying in frustration..... no orgasm...... no love...... no affection. And the constant knowledge that he was fucking every bar girl and neighbor in our town. For 3 years he fucked around, beat me and forced me into pregnancies that I wasn't ready for. But now in hindsight i have learned to recognise my past and then let it go....... it is a huge weight to carry around. A burden that keeps your fat around you to protect you from other men.

I don't feel like going thru all my hardships to make you understand that what does not kill you truely makes you stronger..... But here is a list to help you understand how lucky I feel today to be alive and very much at peace with myself.

raped twice.. once by my own grandfather
2 strokes
10 pregnancies 7 miscarriages
strangled and left for dead
every man in my life has fucked around on me
I stayed fat to protect myself
was butchered in Costa Rica and left to die
got pancreatitis and ended up in ICU
Ludwig Angina and back in ICU
Poisoned by a dear friend that I let live with me

And guess what? I am happier than I have ever been in my life!!! this year of being homeless and totally lost at times has been a spiritual adventure that I will always treasure and appreciate for making me a strong woman.

Gosh

Well everything is going great here cept for alittle nasuea, working my tail off and getting my life back in gear. I have been studying alot and am cleping alot of the courses for my degree. I will still have to take a couple of courses, I am also stuying the new age atlantis, and the 2012 events. More and more of that all rings true.

Danyelle will be here tomorrow, gosh I am so glad to have a like spirit here. Barry is working on my house and I talk to Darren all the time.... I am sure that we will be together soon...... love my wierd little family.