I picked Rick up at the bus station and I am appauld.... I have never seen him so bad. He looks so old I did not recognize him and he stunk so bad that I nearly threw up......... so pathetic. He was doing so well before I went to jail.. This is a test of my faith because as much as I love God, why is he putting Rick thru all of this? How can you punish your child with such a vengence as God has punished him? Or does Ricks guilts and fears draw this negative energy to him?
I will keep practising unconditional love...... but it is hard. I have met an amazing man that fits into a spiritual world and carries no negative baggage.... and he adores me........... but how can I walk away from Rick when he is sooo fragile?
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Ask away and I will try to fill ya in. Much Love