Update

Well Rick is doing great in rehab, he will be able to go out and get a job in 28 days. YEAH!!!!! I pray he doesn't hate me for forcing the issue.... but oh well if he does.

Now as for me, my abilities are growing really strong now and even did a youtube bringing a baby bird back from near death. I do miraculous healings but no one ever pays me, isn't it funny if I escort I make great money, but if I save alife they don'even call and say thank you? I am losing the apartment Monday.... didn't make enough to pay the rent this month. I have realized one thing, if I give a healing I can take it back.... if I give an ability I can take it back..... I have been vampired too long and drained. Sitting here alone so long has done great things for me in that I study and train all the time.

Even that damned documentary I did for Allison that cost me so many hours of my precious time I got not even any footage out of. I am getting alittle hard about the human condition. I would have starved this month if it had not been for Yolanda and Danyella. But all the other girls that I have helped either stole from me, used me, tore up my home or just plain tried to destroy me.

I have developed a new healing technique using theata waves, energy work and hypnosis........ and it is awesome.

I bless those that have been good to me, Many Blessings
CArla Holland-Strange

Trying to Get This to My Editor

I will be sending this off to the publisher soon ..... my journey will never come to an end... but this will help others through all the craziness of the Awakening.

I have learned that most of this is just helping others, but in helping others it also helps yourself to become stronger as a person.

When I met and fell in love with Rick struggling with his frailities made me stand stronger to try and protect him. It also made me stronger learning to let him go. I still pray for him and his family everyday that they will eventually forgive each other and heal as a family should.

I will go to the counceling sessions with Rick, but will not allow him near me untill he finishes his program on his own..... you see I am extremely strong now.

I am now on the International Council for Interfaith Ministries! Yeah!!!!! You see in the last 2 1/2 years since I began on this crazy journey I have grown and become respected in the Spiritual field. Many Blessings

I am Back..... needed a blogger break

Wow what a journey this last 2 years have beens since I started my awakening to our creators love and plans. It sure hasn't been a bed of roses for me..... lost everything twice..... was homeless..... had to reinvent myself as a business woman and as a child of the creator. Thank God that I am a nudists as I haven't been able to afford any new clothes in 2 years since I gave up my porn company to follow Gods plan....hehehehehehehe.



But thank you Creator God/Goddess for teaching me about unconditional love and acceptance! Now give me the strength to get thru the journey of getting my spiritual retreat and healing center started....... I think that I have earned it!



I have been doing healings for the last year thru chakra cleansing and spiritual/sensual touch..... I must say that I am amazed at what I have been able to do. So far I have been working with parkinsons, depressions, after surgery fast healing, fertility (my favorite), sexual dysfunction, intimacy healing, psorisis, high blood pressure,..... I never want to replace a doctor but enhance them thru spiritual support.



Anyway if anyone has any ideas about how I can get my non-profit any faster then let me know. I need to find a location soon.

Struggles, Pain, Transitions

After the last 2 years I am still amazed that I have not committed haricari.. it has been so hard. Thru transition I have learned that I could love people that did not deserve my love, I could trust people that were not trustworthy, I could be betrayed over and over and still not lose faith.

Crazy as it sounds....... I love unconditionaly.

I will never give up on Rick, but he beat me bad again 3 days ago and I never want to be with him as a mate again. He will do 6 months in rehab or go back on the streets.......... it is not my issue.

Bree and I have actually done 6 healings this week that the doctors of our clients are calling us to see what we did to heal their patients........ see if your sick you have to want to be healed...... not use it as an excuse.

I was called this morning to do a healing in India (that is soooooo amazing) we have to wait for my new passport.