hehehehehehe We should be thankful for every single day.... be it good or be it bad. This one sucks but I thank my God for it! Rick came back last night and I wasn't going to let him in the house, he stunk from stale beer........ but it was amazing I felt his humble heart when he cried that he wanted me to help him get over his addiction. You see I know that he is a good guy, he just has a demon in him that he does not want anymore.
You see I don't believe in addictions, I believe they are a way to punish ourselves for our fears and guilts. Once you let go of your fears and guilts you can let go of your addictions. I know I have been there and done that! In my life time I spent 4 straight years on crack and quit in one day.......... Then started drinking like a sailor for 3 straight years hardcore and then have a drink not pick up another.... did meth for 4 months and quit in one day. All because I realized that I was punishing myself with these actions. I had to get down to my fears and guilts and release them to allow myself to heal. we self medicate to smother these things down and not have to face them. Get some balls and face those fears!
I stayed fat for years, BECAUSE I was terrified of being fat........once I wasn't afraid anymore the weight started falling off. I was terrified of getting old and soon as I lost that fear I started looking younger and feeling younger!
i have faith in Rick, he actually wants it this time. Even though he acts bad ass to everyone, he would never harm me (that is the gangsta thing in him I guess) So my meditations and prayers are all for him today. He turns to mush when Taylor is kicking him.... I think my fall last night scared the shit out of him. I talked him into getting to know his kiddos, I think that is his main guilt. but today is the first day of the rest of your life.
With a Humble Heart all is Possible
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
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