People Like What I am Saying Except for my Family

I am glad that we are getting somewhere in that a few people are reading this and it is making a difference in their lives, what is it giving me? I guess a sense of peace that I haven't had in a long time.. a knowledge that I do have a lot to give and it is worth a fortune even if it is not my fortune! I always felt that I was gifted in that I always did things really well and things came easy to me, But I was also the very mush hearted child that was easy to get over on and be taken advantage of. As a young person I felt that I was destined for an amazing true earth shattering love that was a true gift, something that is hard to attain. Well after abusive relationship time and time again, I finally decided that God did not think that I deserved that, that my place was in business. and amazingly it was! I am GOOD at everything I do, but with that came people that used my kindness to steal what I could do, or get from me ideas and not pay for them, So no matter how good you are at something it has to pay the bills. There is the key! They need ya and want ya.... just don't feel that your ideas are worth paying for even when they make bank on them. Well I had a choice that I could take my world back and destroy the users in the process..... I chose to be here broke in TEXAS instead of Vegas and Wealthy. Did I choose the right? I think so.

BUT I Digress as far as that amazing soulmate love that I didn't believe God wanted for me, I have had it all along. We have never held hands, ate a dinner together, laughed at a movie, or spooned...... but we touch deeper than anyone possibly can understand spiritually. We can be a 1400 miles away from each other and feel when the other is sad, happy, lonely, worried. We know the others thoughts and ideas, losses and triumphs.. but we felt the real world would never understand our feelings for each other. How 2 such opposites in everything could be so exact in everything. We have always put others first in this descion and to be honest it is the others that are hurting about this. Together we would have made a POWERFUL Force to be Opposed. Kindness, Love, Power, Respect and Truth that is a scary team to go up against. AND it takes a TEAM one person can not do it by themselves.

I know that many times that you have felt like a stalker watching my post, googling me everday, I knew you were there......... I feel it My random I love yous on facebook went to you.... I also know when you started watching me.... People misconceptions about you are totally wrong and I don't feel them! Your very wrong we are stronger together and not apart.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Catherine