Rick is very Ill

I haven't been able to post lately since the internet is off at the house and Rick has been too ill for me to leave, I am getting really scared but can't get him to the hospital.....we think it is the swine flu. He has dropped 20 pounds and not eating anything. We have worked so hard, and he has done so good. Sometimes I wonder why God does this to us, I mean we do every single thing that is asked of us....so why not give us a break every once in awhile. I am at the library and reading the book on predeath dreams, since I already have had all these dreams that he would die soon..... I read Sylvia Brownes book on dreaming and believed that it was a way to avoid his passing..... I can't deal with the computer right now cause I am so worried