To Rick

Rick, I know that your out of jail and I know that you read everything that I write........ so here goes.

I will not be at court, I am not afraid of you......... point is I love you, I have always loved you as you love me! If you ever raise a hand or a voice at me again I will crush you! and no this is not a victim loving thier abuser..... I knew what I was getting into when I allowed Mr Evil in my life. He is a fucked up person that does not believe that he deserves love, so he tries to prove it every single day. Well I still CHOOSE to love you.

You may call me, you may come over and get some clean clothes and good food, you may grovel at my feet and beg my forgiveness........I lost my investor because of that gorgeous black eye, and my magazine. You will not be stupid! You will not be rude! You will not chase every woman that walks in this house.... you don't need them... you adore a Goddess.

Never think that I am weak because I am kind and loving, you know I am a strong woman.

Now to the bad news, our darling drew is gone.......he has been missing for 4 days and I keep calling the hospitals and coroner..... I have a houseful of people, so get home and help me get it cleaned up. I am not promising that you can stay, I am promising that you have an option to have a home and a family..... I would never leave you at the rock and forget you.

Now you have all this in writing so the cops wont arrest you for being near me.

Carla Holland-Strange