Christian Concert OH MY

Well I had my forst experience with a Christian Rock concert and I wanted to run as fast as I could to get out of there. What is sad is that I know that the artist that was performing was doing it for the right reasons, he had a true wake up call about his calling to the Awakening. BUT it isn't well defined yet I think.

Thruout the concert there was moshing and alot of negative energy, that brewed an underlying violence, 3 of the bands screamed their words and no one understood the actual message. After the concert I saw at least 4 acts of malice, kids smoking pot and cigarettes, the wounds of the ones in the mosh pit, and a little girl that is about 13 that had to explain to her mother why she got a busted lip at a Christian Concert. These kids were there to see a Rock Show not find the love of God.

Don't get me wrong, I thank God for amazing souls like this that want to give back to the youth and try to right wrongs that they feel they have done in their past...... but the positive teaches so much more than the negative. I took some video of the crowd at the concert and talked to some kids after ..... will load it today after I figure all of this out.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

Drugs and Porn

I really need to get alot off my shoulders that mean alot to me and One is drug use. Now you see I was clean 21 years from drugs till I got to Las Vegas and Porn, BUT Guess what Vegas nor Porn started it back for me! That would be a total Excuse! 80% of Adult Actors do not even use a drug alot dont drink or smoke either! They go and get blood done every month for sexually transmitted diseases, they give to charities and basically kind people.

I got on meth because I did not like what I saw in the mirror, and yes it did make me lose some weight. BUT soon as I saw my life was turning to shit I got off of it, but then NONE of my friends believed it cause I didn't do the rehab thing and have to detox......BIG Deal! I put my faith in god and was blessed enough to quit overnight! For the second time in my life! And that was with the Vampires that robbed me doing them everyday in my face. Plus I continued to go from a size 14 to an 8 without drugs and excuses!

And the one that got me started back on drugs by the way was a computer repair guy not a porn star! I know your gonna say none of them were there for me when things got rough and why do I still love them and love the industry..... Because they are TRYING to make changes! Remember the old day. These are wonderful regular people that chose a different path...... not a path of Sin just a job choice. You see people look at things wrong. When God Said not to commit Adultry it was about the heart (true love) or spirit and body are 2 seperate things..... our spirit loves and our body has sex. Sex is a much needed function for our bodies pressure vavles, without sexual release we do build up and explode.

So moral to the story is People if sex is not that great with you as a couple, get some help!!! Therapy, Sexual Surrogate, Even a hooker that you know and trust.

I call BullShit

How can people do what they are doing these days and use excuses like God made me do it or the Devil made me do it that is all BS! I have had 3 of my grandkids today, not got any sleep last night plus throwing up and I have no thinking process that would ever make me do something like that girl in San Antonio........ How can people do that crap?

And believe me Logan is a handful (he is my youngest GB)

Also people need to realize that prescription drugs are causing alot more destruction to lives than illegal ones.

Letter I wrote to my Mom

This is the Second time that I have been arrested after 2 people started coming down from their drugs of choice.... both times 2 people on one and I am the one that went to jail! I am also the one that was not doing a drug or drunk. Now I am not an Angel I did beat the shit out of a friend one night because she called me "Robert's Whore" But these two incidences no I did not inflict enough pain to be on the run.

By the way when you hit someone there are bruises on your hands and swelling..... you BOTH saw what you wanted to see. It is call mass hysteria. You can blame me all you want, but I wasn't coming down from Vicodin. and just because someone says something does not mean you have to verbally push them in a corner.... i called Kaye evil, Does that give her the right to POKE me into a corner calling me a Cunt 5 times? When I hit someone it leaves marks that fade, when you verbally abuse someone it leaves marks forever...... and you BOTH have been the queens of verbal abuse to me. Those children are doomed to grown up thinking it is ok to abuse childrens lungs, and bash people verbally, or make fun of their looks..... everytime you call someone a name look in the mirror!

Knowing that my OWN family is trying to control me with fear, is kinda laughable..... stress me out and watch my BP kill me.... then you don't have to take accountability of the harms that you inflict. Well what you do to people is no different from what that girl did to that baby except that baby only had to endure it for 3 weeks, mine has been 48 years of emotional dismemberment

You see I have beaten someone in a rage, you remember EVERY single Second of it and your hands hurt for days! AND I was drinking! I was Sober with Kaye and not a Mark! that soon after an assault there would not be a bruise, but a swelling and red marks. Bruises age with colors they don't begin with colors! Thank God that the ONE person that I really did attack was more family to me than you 2. I love you Bonnie!

I love you too! Just get off the drugs (vicodin) all it is doing is masking the real pain .... the pain of hating the world you created for yourselves... lonliness and bitterness!

As for the cops and Falls County I told some home truths that have gotten me in trouble....... They misuse Charity Funds to benefit them versus the county, the judge sits and gossips in front of inmates, with chest pains no one came to even check on me. they refused to let me have my BP meds till AFTER I was released knowing that I was hurting in the CAR! It is all in the paperwork that I donated to the charity. Because I am tired of being scared of what is going to happen to me. Great way to keep my mouth shut is by dismissing a case and holding it over my head! By the way has anyone not heard of Miranda Rights anymore? or Double Jepardy? Falsifying Paperwork? Leaving MY property out on the Desk from 930 pm to 500 am? Denying my rights to Medical Attention?

I am NOT Hiding anymore from ANY Thing I will fight to the End for what I know is true.......... Print this and Give it to Officer Hamilton, and the Mayor!

Non-Profits run thru Texas Star Bank... that aren't really
Credit Cards that disappear in the Lott Post Office
Food Charities given out to the well off versus the poor
Disaster funds that Common People don't know about that sit unclaimed that the county gets to sit on!
You see EVERYONE has gotten so Jaded that they just keep allowing shit like this, because they don't have indignation anymore in what is wrong!

I am giving this to the cop I trust too! After being a cop for so many years he would not have made the mistakes he did on that report, he did it to save me!