Well I knew there was a reason that God forced me back to Texas and now I am glad he did..... my Dad had a heart attack. I know that he has never cared about me, but I am glad that I am here close if this is the end. Everything happens for a reason of this I am sure.
I talked to my darling Marque Black and I think he is coming to help me with the retreats, guess he is still having troublles getting on his feet there in Vegas..... and Danyelle is coming Monday.......YEAHHHHHH all my friends (true ones) are migrating here...... now I need to find Drew and get him here. Hell tawney just spent a week with us and we did not kill each other. We seem t be different people here.
I have realized alot since I have been here.... cream really does float to the top. The friends that stuck are my cream.
Mom and I are totally back to talking to each other every single day and it made me realize how incomplete I felt when I could not tell her that I loved her every single day. anyway enough of the maudlin stuff............... Many Blessings to all!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Being back in Texas
Things are going pretty well here, Tawney is visiting and we are woorking alot....... funny thing is we get along great here and fought all the time in Vegas. Then I have Barry, Steph and my best friend Sharon here in town too.... so I am not alone. There is alot more work for me here than in Vegas, so life is not a struggle here as it was there. My little house is cute (not fancy like my others, but cute) and I can even afford to keep this one on my own. ... plus like I said there is plenty of work here for me. I will have a car by Weds and my son is coming to live with me!
I know alot of you ask me about Rick, I haven't heard from him at all..... he sent me a message that he hates me and never wants to see me again..... oh well. I love him with all my heart, but he was toxic and it nearly dragged me down with him. Jeremy said that Rick is doing great and that he even has a car (which is scary with his drinking) So I guess I was toxic to him too.
I love you all that follows my life and progresses the house number is 817-341-6277
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Long Time
Well I swore that I wasn't going to post anymore but found that I had a huge following and all the emails wanting to know what had happened to me.... so here goes.
I am back in Texas and things are pretty good! I just got a house and am waiting to finalize the nudist resort that I always wanted to open. Rick is still in Las Vegas and claims that he hates my guts, but we all know that Rick hates himself. He had detoxed and did amazing until New Years Eve, when he decided to go off on his own and pulled an over nighter....... so I turned the tables on him New Years Day and I got sloppy drunk and embarrassed him in front of people (people never let me do that again please) anyway I told him to go. He was still calling old Sue Kessler for her approval for everything he did.... so maybe the old bitch will support his crazy ass. LOL I know this does not sound like me, but I finally got fed up.
Anyway I am ok, and planning on finishing my degree in the Spring. my number is 817-341-6277 if anyone needs to talk to me. I know that Rick can't get this because he can't figure out the computer well enough.
I am back in Texas and things are pretty good! I just got a house and am waiting to finalize the nudist resort that I always wanted to open. Rick is still in Las Vegas and claims that he hates my guts, but we all know that Rick hates himself. He had detoxed and did amazing until New Years Eve, when he decided to go off on his own and pulled an over nighter....... so I turned the tables on him New Years Day and I got sloppy drunk and embarrassed him in front of people (people never let me do that again please) anyway I told him to go. He was still calling old Sue Kessler for her approval for everything he did.... so maybe the old bitch will support his crazy ass. LOL I know this does not sound like me, but I finally got fed up.
Anyway I am ok, and planning on finishing my degree in the Spring. my number is 817-341-6277 if anyone needs to talk to me. I know that Rick can't get this because he can't figure out the computer well enough.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
My Final Blog After a Year of Transitioning to an Awakening
Seem like that sounds like a great title for my book huh? A Transitioning to My Awakening? Whew it has been a long year and a hard year... but a blessed year too! Last year I asked God to finally bring my soulmate into my life, did not know that in order for him to be there I had to lose everything to gain everything!
All year long has been a financial struggle, because God for some reason decided that I wasn't to be allowed to be a hooker anymore.... a great visionary told me that he had chose a new path for me. Well that path has lead me to many things that I am not only good but great at.... cooking, cleaning, compassion, spiritual healing and self awareness! The Friday before Thanksgiving an old long term friend put me and Rick out on the streets, and kept my possessions (id and purse) We have been sleeping in the back of a truck in temps as low as 38 degrees and we have done it and survived! Now Rick has a place to go (one of his drunk friends that hates me) but he chose to stay there and take care of me...... NO ONE EVER DID THAT FOR ME
Funny thing in all of this is that I have done things for others all of my life..... including all my friends that love to hang out or crash at my house for free all the time.. those are the people that kept my rooms full but only contributed to food for me to cook..... Now I know this is gonna piss alot of people off, but I really don't care anymore. When I talked to people on the phone and they found out that I was homeless they were sooooo ready to get off the phone. Told me alot! You will give a stranger on the street all of your change and not give a shit about your friends. I don't care if this hurts my business, since I don't want to work with users anyway.
Here is the funny part, most of you know that I am a survivor and I do not stay down..... I am a weeble I wobble but don't fall down. I ran into Sassy from the Sex with Sassy Show Yesterday and they want me to do VEgas Adult Inc on alltalkradio.net She even brought us a blanket and some clothes..... so I won't stay down.
Now if there really are any true friends out there we need help! This is Christmas time and I would never leave my friends homeless, cold and hungry in the back of a truck! I will help your careers alot with my show, allowing my true friends to guest on my show all the time.....but the friends that threw me to the curb need to throw away my number.........cause I remember everything. Even if you don't have cash to spare we need stuff.... pots, pans dishes, utensils, sheets, towels, old computer ANYTHING!
My number is 702-496-3627 A young HOMELESS boy put money on my phone, funny huh? Now you know if I can turn the Evil One into an amazing guy then I might turn my fake friends into frogs! Oh and still hate Live Oak Resort and Sue Kasser, can't wait to bash them to all my radio listeners EVERY week till hell freezes Over!
Oh and Rick and I are getting Married Jan 1 2010 @ 1:01 am during the NYE Party..... because we are survivors!
All year long has been a financial struggle, because God for some reason decided that I wasn't to be allowed to be a hooker anymore.... a great visionary told me that he had chose a new path for me. Well that path has lead me to many things that I am not only good but great at.... cooking, cleaning, compassion, spiritual healing and self awareness! The Friday before Thanksgiving an old long term friend put me and Rick out on the streets, and kept my possessions (id and purse) We have been sleeping in the back of a truck in temps as low as 38 degrees and we have done it and survived! Now Rick has a place to go (one of his drunk friends that hates me) but he chose to stay there and take care of me...... NO ONE EVER DID THAT FOR ME
Funny thing in all of this is that I have done things for others all of my life..... including all my friends that love to hang out or crash at my house for free all the time.. those are the people that kept my rooms full but only contributed to food for me to cook..... Now I know this is gonna piss alot of people off, but I really don't care anymore. When I talked to people on the phone and they found out that I was homeless they were sooooo ready to get off the phone. Told me alot! You will give a stranger on the street all of your change and not give a shit about your friends. I don't care if this hurts my business, since I don't want to work with users anyway.
Here is the funny part, most of you know that I am a survivor and I do not stay down..... I am a weeble I wobble but don't fall down. I ran into Sassy from the Sex with Sassy Show Yesterday and they want me to do VEgas Adult Inc on alltalkradio.net She even brought us a blanket and some clothes..... so I won't stay down.
Now if there really are any true friends out there we need help! This is Christmas time and I would never leave my friends homeless, cold and hungry in the back of a truck! I will help your careers alot with my show, allowing my true friends to guest on my show all the time.....but the friends that threw me to the curb need to throw away my number.........cause I remember everything. Even if you don't have cash to spare we need stuff.... pots, pans dishes, utensils, sheets, towels, old computer ANYTHING!
My number is 702-496-3627 A young HOMELESS boy put money on my phone, funny huh? Now you know if I can turn the Evil One into an amazing guy then I might turn my fake friends into frogs! Oh and still hate Live Oak Resort and Sue Kasser, can't wait to bash them to all my radio listeners EVERY week till hell freezes Over!
Oh and Rick and I are getting Married Jan 1 2010 @ 1:01 am during the NYE Party..... because we are survivors!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I give up
I am finally to the point where I realize God has no love for me.... I have been a sucker like everyone else that believed he would be there for them. I lost the last thing that I had held onto... or rather it was jerked from me. I put all of my soul and now their gone. I won't be back on here, how can you feel positive when you lose the ones that you love.
Triumph Property Management
can you all join me in at least a phone call to these people to get my purse back? I need to work so bad, Rick will be dead out in that cold soon if I can't get him off that stupid rock.
I dont hide my drama or joys....... So Here Goes
Well everyone is driving me nuts with questions about how this all happened, so it is easier to tell all 6000 of you at one time versuses one at a time.... so here goes!
When I got back to Vegas from Texas, I litererally came back here with NOTHING just as I left (thanks to unnamed persons that I do love and forgive) My ex boss (and hero) was in town and offered me her vacation home here to stay in, but at the cost of $4000 a month, well knowing how my world is here I jumped at that because with soooooo many friends here I could easily afford that after All I had before.
But nothing at all is like it was before, I had grown a huge heart (bigger than I had before in fact) and it was my downfall. All I could think of was helping people, it was my obssession. I did clothing drives for the homeless, benefits for Aids (and you folks only donate .25 cents!) Three bands and all day and 25 cents? Letting producers that I adore come and shoot at my house for free, because I felt they would do what was right and at least offer. Taking people in that promised to pay when they got work and then they ran soon as they got a paycheck.
Now I am locked out of the house, all my possessions, my purse (with my ID and debt card) since last fri. did not want to put it on my friends to worry about on a holiday, but the little kild prankster has brought it all out. I am staying at WADES till this afternoon then I am totally homeless. I can't even get my ID to go to a brothel, because my ex boss and Triumph property management does not care.
I wanted people to see that the Adult Field was just a job and that we are all just people with families, that had normal lives outside of our jobs..... but I am wrong. The heart has left most people and they blame it on the economy, it isn't the economy because people that believe in God know that we get trials before rewards.... and how we adjust to those trials determine our rewards.
Yes I am still getting Red Rock, but that does not close till the middle of Dec. just in time for our party.
I have a little prepaid cell phone, but it runs out of minutes tomorrow. so if you need me my number is 702-496-3627 .... Do Not Believe that just cause I let you in on my temporary problems that I will stop fighting and believing........ That isn't me.
Much Love and Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Sue Kasser remember the mighty can fall, and the evil will perish...... I will survive because God watches over me....... remember my screams as I was being beaten and you sat and listened to it with sexual excitement? Judgement will come and it won't be from me........ aren't you over 60? Not long to make wrongs right.
When I got back to Vegas from Texas, I litererally came back here with NOTHING just as I left (thanks to unnamed persons that I do love and forgive) My ex boss (and hero) was in town and offered me her vacation home here to stay in, but at the cost of $4000 a month, well knowing how my world is here I jumped at that because with soooooo many friends here I could easily afford that after All I had before.
But nothing at all is like it was before, I had grown a huge heart (bigger than I had before in fact) and it was my downfall. All I could think of was helping people, it was my obssession. I did clothing drives for the homeless, benefits for Aids (and you folks only donate .25 cents!) Three bands and all day and 25 cents? Letting producers that I adore come and shoot at my house for free, because I felt they would do what was right and at least offer. Taking people in that promised to pay when they got work and then they ran soon as they got a paycheck.
Now I am locked out of the house, all my possessions, my purse (with my ID and debt card) since last fri. did not want to put it on my friends to worry about on a holiday, but the little kild prankster has brought it all out. I am staying at WADES till this afternoon then I am totally homeless. I can't even get my ID to go to a brothel, because my ex boss and Triumph property management does not care.
I wanted people to see that the Adult Field was just a job and that we are all just people with families, that had normal lives outside of our jobs..... but I am wrong. The heart has left most people and they blame it on the economy, it isn't the economy because people that believe in God know that we get trials before rewards.... and how we adjust to those trials determine our rewards.
Yes I am still getting Red Rock, but that does not close till the middle of Dec. just in time for our party.
I have a little prepaid cell phone, but it runs out of minutes tomorrow. so if you need me my number is 702-496-3627 .... Do Not Believe that just cause I let you in on my temporary problems that I will stop fighting and believing........ That isn't me.
Much Love and Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Sue Kasser remember the mighty can fall, and the evil will perish...... I will survive because God watches over me....... remember my screams as I was being beaten and you sat and listened to it with sexual excitement? Judgement will come and it won't be from me........ aren't you over 60? Not long to make wrongs right.
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