Never Ending Drama

You know I am amazing at what I do and I love it......... not bragging just true. After failed marriages over crappy sex, all I ever did was study the amazing Orgasm and realized that it was also a huge healing vibration, so I have devoted my life to the study and the theory of Orgasm. But does anyone pay attention? No they will always see me as the ex porn producer and hooker! Big Deal! I am also educated, and I believe in what I do!

I believe in marriage, family, and committment but I see marriages fall apart all the time over crappy sex lifes. All I wanted to do was make a difference! I can get the men into my practice but not the wives..... I am about to give up!
Carla Holland-Strange
702-265-08888

10-20 years for Rick

Well here comes my problem, They are going after 10-20 years on Rick if he does not take the probation that is being offered to him.... He is scared that he won't be able to conform to the probation without screwing up.... I am going to ask that he be given that medication that makes you sick if you drink anything (court ordered) but I can't afford all of this. We will have probation fees, medications ,,,,, I don't know what to do. His Demons are alcohol...... his is an amazing person without it. I mean if he had cancer I would not leave him... Alcoholism is a disease too.

I catch so much hell because I keep taking him back... but I know the idiot will give his shirt to help someone and that is what I preach. He does not deserve 10-20 years because he won't let go of the damaged child that he struggles with.
I mean none of are perfect.... we evolve to perfection. I know he is a long way from perfect........ but I saw him do so much for others and that gives him redemption. I am all that he has and I will never betray him.

If I can just get the Foundation started we can get grants and more for the community..... Rick wants to teach the kids music and I want to teach them healing, animals, swimming, and spirituality. Marque will teach gymnastics, tennis, dance and theatre. I joined the Brave Heart Women and the empowerment of strong women will get me thru the hard times.

Now for the most important thing I have to do today.... I am NOT married to Richard John Digiacomo......... he thinks that since this is a common law state that it is sealed in stone and it isn't. I will not risk any of my grants or contributions getting into Rick's hands. Soon as I get the money to finish the non-profit the Directors will all be Empowered Women with no addictions.

Many Blessings
Carla

A letter to my son and husband

Dear Rick and Jeremy

I am writing this letter to Both of you because you both suffer from the same issues.... and until you acknowledge this you will live in jails and streets......... with no one that loves you after they get to know you. You see the reason that you lay hands on women is because you hate them. Even though the person that loves you most in your life is a woman.

Jeremy I am guilty of letting you slide so much and feeling that I must have failed you as a mother because you are failing in the real world. But truth be known your a grown man and it is your job to put your big boy pants on and be a father. But you latch onto lonely older women and use them. Is that a sick way of getting back at me for my raising of you? GrowUp and be a father to all of these kids you made and show them what a good man is. I will NOT send another dime... so make amends with God so he will see that your worthy.

Rick you can look at every female as the cause of your problems.... but fact be told........ YOU are your own DEMON. You hate being happy. Because you don't feel worthy as a man.... and to be honest your not worthy. You have an amazing gift of healing that you can give the world but cigs are so much more important to you. Your call today has gotten me to thinking, you will never care that you have hammered my face, busted my lip, strangled me with a lamp cord......... you don't love me and probably like Jeremy you never will. You never deserved a woman that has loved you for over 2 years unconditionally.... a woman that you have never put first in your life. You would not even let me tell you what was going on in my life today, you were too busy wallowing about your injustices. If I stayed with you, one day you would kill me.... that is why I demanded you get probation...... but as you said you could never pass probation standards. I do love you, but I am not a punching bag.

Everyday I work on making the world a better place, and making a difference...... but you distract me. I would rather let you both go out of my life rather than be used by 2 men that could care less about me.

Jeremy I gave you life and I love you with all my heart, but if you don't change now you will be like Rick, a man that will never be a father to his children..... and Rick if you don't change you will be that dirty homeless guy that dies in the gutter from a rotted liver and no one to bury you.

I love you both
Your Mother, and Your Wife

PS .... since you both are fathers of female children, how are going to feel when some lowlife user beats your baby girl? Not too great..... Men should stand tall and be men, Jeremy, Zane wants to talk to his Daddy is that gonna be 10-20 years? Both of you grow up please
Carla

We Need Help

Morning Star Retreat

Morning Star will feature new age spiritual beliefs and health programs
non-religion based spiritual meetings and classes
alternative medical practices
colonics
accupressure
accupuncture
chakra realigning and charging
sensual healing
alternative infertility treatments
reiki
healthier food behaviors
organic gardens
energy healings
animal energy healings
meditation gardens


This is my Dream and I believe that this was my purpose, I have seen the miracles that sensual and spiritual healing can do! I was suppose to die 5 years ago from Lupus and now there is no signs what so ever of Lupus. I know with a firm belief that God will guide us to miracle healing modalities that it will happen!

I need donations to get this all started and it can only come from true believers in Gods amazing grace..... Look at the changes that he has done in mine and Ricks lives.

If anyone wants to donate to help me with any of this I have a paypal acct setup under Earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com even $5 can make a difference in many lives.

Thanks So Much and Many Blessings
Rev. Carla Holland-Strange

Trying to Get This to My Editor

I will be sending this off to the publisher soon ..... my journey will never come to an end... but this will help others through all the craziness of the Awakening.

I have learned that most of this is just helping others, but in helping others it also helps yourself to become stronger as a person.

When I met and fell in love with Rick struggling with his frailities made me stand stronger to try and protect him. It also made me stronger learning to let him go. I still pray for him and his family everyday that they will eventually forgive each other and heal as a family should.

I will go to the counceling sessions with Rick, but will not allow him near me untill he finishes his program on his own..... you see I am extremely strong now.

I am now on the International Council for Interfaith Ministries! Yeah!!!!! You see in the last 2 1/2 years since I began on this crazy journey I have grown and become respected in the Spiritual field. Many Blessings

Sooo Tired today

I was called in on a pet healing for the last 2 days and I found that it was more for the owner than the cat...... Cat had a stroke Sunday, but is doing fine now. Owner is pouring out lots of pain from the past. I am having to distance for awhile or I get drained. I love what I do and find that I truely have an amazing gift, but it is a burden too...... it was soooo much easier before the awakening.

I have been having prophetic dreams too of a huge disaster coming within the month, and taking a huge amount of lives. I called in 2 other spiritualist and they are feeling the same things. That is a huge burden on a 50 yo woman to hold up and not be able to do anything about.

I am Back..... needed a blogger break

Wow what a journey this last 2 years have beens since I started my awakening to our creators love and plans. It sure hasn't been a bed of roses for me..... lost everything twice..... was homeless..... had to reinvent myself as a business woman and as a child of the creator. Thank God that I am a nudists as I haven't been able to afford any new clothes in 2 years since I gave up my porn company to follow Gods plan....hehehehehehehe.



But thank you Creator God/Goddess for teaching me about unconditional love and acceptance! Now give me the strength to get thru the journey of getting my spiritual retreat and healing center started....... I think that I have earned it!



I have been doing healings for the last year thru chakra cleansing and spiritual/sensual touch..... I must say that I am amazed at what I have been able to do. So far I have been working with parkinsons, depressions, after surgery fast healing, fertility (my favorite), sexual dysfunction, intimacy healing, psorisis, high blood pressure,..... I never want to replace a doctor but enhance them thru spiritual support.



Anyway if anyone has any ideas about how I can get my non-profit any faster then let me know. I need to find a location soon.