I need some insights on how to become human

Ok folks I need some insights on how to be more human. You see for years I am there for anyone that ever needs me, a place to stay, a place to eat, a hug, my last dime..... and throughout the years I have lost all my possessions, thrown into jail by my friends and family, lost my pets.... but I kept on with this endless spiral of belief in these very same people. I asked a roomful of them the other night.... why i could never come first to one of them. When things are going good, they put me right out of their thoughts...... But when things are bad or confusing and they need clarity........ they run straight to Momma.

Now here is my dilema, how do I stop caring? How to do I harden my heart to not care? I mean I am totally confused. I lost my baby 2 days ago and I was still going to LA to do the Walk For Aids and could not even get a ride from one of them..... much less a sponsor! Tony has lived with me off and on since 2007 and put in $120 in all that time....... then bitched cause he had to give me a ride. I called a number of friends to be with me when I lost the baby, and only one showed up! I have been in ICU 3 times and not one time did family or friends stay at the hospital with me! I rescued over 900 dogs in 7 years and my animals went to the pound when I was drugged and thrown in jail!

What I am saying is....... no matter how it hurts.... no matter what I lose...... No matter who stabs me in the back....... I won't change. Don't ask me why I love my God so much because, he doesn't answer my prayers too often either........ but I know that he is doing this for a reason. I haven't even been able to do an appointment because I was pregnant, my parties were people just showing up and not contributing towards the cause.... Except for the wonderful bands Smiling Slut Puppies, 90 degrees, and Elliot Zabo .... Ya'll were a true blessing! I also want to thank Jeanette Johnson my ex boss for making sure that I had a roof over my head.

My prayers are for humans to learn to care again, the computers and internet have made you kind of distant and cold. Are you replacing love, and friendships with a cold computer screen?

I forgot, Drew puts me first........ he was on the streets for 2 years and homeless..... he loves me.
I love all these people and even if I never get put first for a minute, i will still love them.

Enough venting..................................Many Blessings Carla Holland-Strange

My Letter to Investors

I need an investor that wants to be a visionary......... Las Vegas is going to boom again real soon and you should not put all of your eggs in one basket! I need an investor that is ready to get on the ground floor of 4 amazing business w/property collateral! I am looking at a 6 mil investment with a 7% interest and a 3 year payoff............you can't lose! This is a win win. and I have to get this started before my talk show starts Next Monday. You see I am a well known Adult Business Professional and I have a nationwide show starting next Monday on the Adult Broadcast Network. You can check me out on the Adult Who's Who.... Under Vegas Adult Talent. You see I am good at what I do because I love it! It is my PASSION not my job. When you love something you make it work. Just like a Mother nurturing a child that she has born......we put our whole spirit in it! Now total I need 6 M, for 3 projects, I can take one investor for all of them or we can break it all up. I have a winning team in place, this includes adult businesses, real estate management, talent, and flipping. I have the connections to get these houses sold, I also want to get a Vegas Team together for the Show Flip This House, I am starting a Sensual Healing Resort for Couples....... as you can see I know my business backwards and forwards. If interested please feel free to contact me at the number below. Vegas Adult IncCastingProductionLifeCoachingReal estate managmentRepairs and remodelingLandscapingSensual HealingCateringParty PlanningWeddingsCleaning Services (topless available)Dating ServiceMassage TherapistPrivate Make-Up ArtistPrivate HairdressersWe are the Ultimate Concierge Service for Vegas!No one is more respected! I have refs from all over the World for my hard work and sincerity!Carla Holland-Strangecall 702-291-8565

Parties, Locations, Real Estate, Couples Retreats

I am still working on all of my plans............I will never let my dreams die that is for sure! Want to hear all of them? I am enjoying blogging this morning and getting alot of it out of my thoughts and down in writing.
I want to buy preforeclosures and lease option to the families that are losing them
I want to have network parties, location shoots, Spiritual Meetings
I want to start couples retreats and teach people how to fall back inlove thru sensuality
I want to get the surrogacy program off the ground to help the Desiree Alliance

You see a woman has the rights to rent her body if she chooses, and she has the right to get out of the business if she chooses! And if she needs help that is what we are here for either direction!