An Amazing Awakening

My journey has been amazing and the transformation even puts me in awe. You see when the transition began I felt that it was a nightmare that I could not wake up from. I mean all this crazy shit that has no earthly reasoning. BUT as I look back it has always been there in my life, when my great grandfather died I was 6 and i still remember him coming to me and letting me know that he was still with me. I have run from this most of my life, and not understood that it is the purpose that I am here.

God gives each of us talents and abilities........... wonderous gifts. My gifts are the gifts of sight, healing, compassion, empathy, and unconditional love. My job is to recognise and embrace them not run from them.

I tell my God everyday how much I love and appreciate him.....but now that my time is getting back into high demand... I don't spend enough time telling people in my life what they mean to me.

Mom, we don't have to agree to Love each other.......... But if tonight is the last night of our lives I want you to know that your my hero.

Kaye, I love you.... you have the same abilities that I do..... your just scared of them. Venture out and touch that inner soul... think of all the people that you can help. You have to love yourself for others to find you!

Gen, Jeremy, Brandon, Amanda..........what can I say. Your the best kids a woman could ever have...... your lights are so bright.

To all my amazing friends, all I can say is Thank God that I have you.

AJB.... we are forever connected.............we are forever atuned...........I will always feel your essence............ together or apart.

To my Darling Taylor Anne Holland, I pray we get thru this............ Your making me really tired lately.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

OMG No Wonder Rick Drinks

I just got off the phone with Ricks family, no wonder that he does not believe that he deserves a normal life. Before his sister even asked who I was she judged me as a weak woman that Rick latched onto to live off of. I hung up on her twice because she has no idea what horrible beliefs are pumped into someone that feels their own family does not love them. Me weak? That is a total laugh. I would fight a mountain lion for family or friends!

How can anyone get well when they have no one that believes in them? I get mad at my mom because she was too in control of my life and did not understand who I am as a person.....but she would NEVER ... never mind.

When he gets home I am going to wrap my arms around him and let him know that someone gives a damned. And you know what he loves me and Taylor. even when he knows that she is Joes.

Vegas

Gosh.......finally headed home and it is like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I ran to Texas because I was scared of being alone in Vegas when all this drama began.... now I realize I have been more alone here than I ever would have there. Don't get me wrong people "tried' to be there for me here in Texas.......BUT they didn't want to be. and if you truely love someone it comes with no strings attached. I am going back to Vegas with 5 bucks to my name, but I KNOW I will be ok..... I know that God loves us wild, crazy sinners with all his heart..... because I don't hide behind a church and religion to know that I am a good person.

I love you Dionne for being there for me, you gave and never asked for anything in return.... We agreed to disagree about everything, but you showed me that mutual respect does exsist here.

I love you Wade, because you have always been my burly grumpy shoulder to lean on... That is the reason that I am not afraid to go home!

I love you Chanel for keeping clothes on my back! Wish we wore the same size shoe!!!!

I love you Deb, for the shelter that you have offered me, even without electric i know that I will feel welcomed and loved.......We WILL get that electric back on.

I love you Robert for making sure that when I asked for help you came thru and did not hold it against me or use it on me.

I love you Jeremy, Brandon, and Amanda...... though your hands are tied by bonds that you have no control over...... I know that you love me!

I love you Vegas for being a place that freaks, misfits and immorals can fit in and find true friends that love them.

I know in my heart that I will never willingly return to Texas, I won't come back for any reasons, no illnesses, deaths, marriages, births will draw me back here. Phones are perfect ways to stay in contact

Family Get Together

we are having a family get together tomorrow at Dionnes, it has been wonderful staying with her.... we are so much alike but sooooo different at the same time. Both spiritual and loving, but me wild as hell........hehehehe

Anyway, my son and his ex are meeting here tomorrow and i get to see my youngest granddaughter... Yea!!!!!

I pray that this is the last thing on my agenda so I can get back to Vegas! I want to see my families back together and whole ( my kids and grandkids)

I will not ever give up the battles that I have realized affect everyone, and pray that people start fighting back when they are done wrong. Pick your battles, but realize that the Internet is a HUGE weapon! it only takes a couple of complaints on the internet to bring a dishonest business down!

Healings and Great Gifts!!!!!!!!!

I have been blessed to see miracles in the last few weeks along with all the hardships, miracles from a girl in jail that needed to know that she deserved a second chance, to be the mother and woman she wanted to be..... miracles in seeing a scared young woman reach out to a stranger to not be alone while she was sick in the hospital...miracles in my beautiful family healing ... and hopefully soon the Unity of a complete family with my kiddos, their mates and all the grandkids loveingly becoming one family..... I am blessed in that all my children are strong individuals... and they are strong in their family convictions and beliefs.
Many Blessings


Thanks for all the Text Lisa....... reaching out is a sign of strength that only a REAL Earth Goddess can do

Children

The best love that you can give a child is the love gift of your time........ Please stop with all the toys! Afew minutes of the day stop and do a chore with them, teaching starts early. Your responsible for who that child becomes, I sit here and watch my daughter in law explain things to my grandbabies and I feel comfortable wanting to go back to Vegas... See this is the FIRST time that I actually got to know my daughter in law with a genuine heart. turns out i loved her..... Before I got here I had a message that the greatest gift that a Mother can give her son is to LOVE his wife. Just another gift that I recieved along the road.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange