My Final Blog After a Year of Transitioning to an Awakening

Seem like that sounds like a great title for my book huh? A Transitioning to My Awakening? Whew it has been a long year and a hard year... but a blessed year too! Last year I asked God to finally bring my soulmate into my life, did not know that in order for him to be there I had to lose everything to gain everything!

All year long has been a financial struggle, because God for some reason decided that I wasn't to be allowed to be a hooker anymore.... a great visionary told me that he had chose a new path for me. Well that path has lead me to many things that I am not only good but great at.... cooking, cleaning, compassion, spiritual healing and self awareness! The Friday before Thanksgiving an old long term friend put me and Rick out on the streets, and kept my possessions (id and purse) We have been sleeping in the back of a truck in temps as low as 38 degrees and we have done it and survived! Now Rick has a place to go (one of his drunk friends that hates me) but he chose to stay there and take care of me...... NO ONE EVER DID THAT FOR ME

Funny thing in all of this is that I have done things for others all of my life..... including all my friends that love to hang out or crash at my house for free all the time.. those are the people that kept my rooms full but only contributed to food for me to cook..... Now I know this is gonna piss alot of people off, but I really don't care anymore. When I talked to people on the phone and they found out that I was homeless they were sooooo ready to get off the phone. Told me alot! You will give a stranger on the street all of your change and not give a shit about your friends. I don't care if this hurts my business, since I don't want to work with users anyway.

Here is the funny part, most of you know that I am a survivor and I do not stay down..... I am a weeble I wobble but don't fall down. I ran into Sassy from the Sex with Sassy Show Yesterday and they want me to do VEgas Adult Inc on alltalkradio.net She even brought us a blanket and some clothes..... so I won't stay down.

Now if there really are any true friends out there we need help! This is Christmas time and I would never leave my friends homeless, cold and hungry in the back of a truck! I will help your careers alot with my show, allowing my true friends to guest on my show all the time.....but the friends that threw me to the curb need to throw away my number.........cause I remember everything. Even if you don't have cash to spare we need stuff.... pots, pans dishes, utensils, sheets, towels, old computer ANYTHING!

My number is 702-496-3627 A young HOMELESS boy put money on my phone, funny huh? Now you know if I can turn the Evil One into an amazing guy then I might turn my fake friends into frogs! Oh and still hate Live Oak Resort and Sue Kasser, can't wait to bash them to all my radio listeners EVERY week till hell freezes Over!

Oh and Rick and I are getting Married Jan 1 2010 @ 1:01 am during the NYE Party..... because we are survivors!

I give up

I am finally to the point where I realize God has no love for me.... I have been a sucker like everyone else that believed he would be there for them. I lost the last thing that I had held onto... or rather it was jerked from me. I put all of my soul and now their gone. I won't be back on here, how can you feel positive when you lose the ones that you love.

Triumph Property Management

can you all join me in at least a phone call to these people to get my purse back? I need to work so bad, Rick will be dead out in that cold soon if I can't get him off that stupid rock.

I dont hide my drama or joys....... So Here Goes

Well everyone is driving me nuts with questions about how this all happened, so it is easier to tell all 6000 of you at one time versuses one at a time.... so here goes!

When I got back to Vegas from Texas, I litererally came back here with NOTHING just as I left (thanks to unnamed persons that I do love and forgive) My ex boss (and hero) was in town and offered me her vacation home here to stay in, but at the cost of $4000 a month, well knowing how my world is here I jumped at that because with soooooo many friends here I could easily afford that after All I had before.

But nothing at all is like it was before, I had grown a huge heart (bigger than I had before in fact) and it was my downfall. All I could think of was helping people, it was my obssession. I did clothing drives for the homeless, benefits for Aids (and you folks only donate .25 cents!) Three bands and all day and 25 cents? Letting producers that I adore come and shoot at my house for free, because I felt they would do what was right and at least offer. Taking people in that promised to pay when they got work and then they ran soon as they got a paycheck.

Now I am locked out of the house, all my possessions, my purse (with my ID and debt card) since last fri. did not want to put it on my friends to worry about on a holiday, but the little kild prankster has brought it all out. I am staying at WADES till this afternoon then I am totally homeless. I can't even get my ID to go to a brothel, because my ex boss and Triumph property management does not care.

I wanted people to see that the Adult Field was just a job and that we are all just people with families, that had normal lives outside of our jobs..... but I am wrong. The heart has left most people and they blame it on the economy, it isn't the economy because people that believe in God know that we get trials before rewards.... and how we adjust to those trials determine our rewards.
Yes I am still getting Red Rock, but that does not close till the middle of Dec. just in time for our party.

I have a little prepaid cell phone, but it runs out of minutes tomorrow. so if you need me my number is 702-496-3627 .... Do Not Believe that just cause I let you in on my temporary problems that I will stop fighting and believing........ That isn't me.
Much Love and Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

Sue Kasser remember the mighty can fall, and the evil will perish...... I will survive because God watches over me....... remember my screams as I was being beaten and you sat and listened to it with sexual excitement? Judgement will come and it won't be from me........ aren't you over 60? Not long to make wrongs right.

Long Walk and Deep Thoughts... Fallen Angels

Alot has come to me lately that I am really interested in, and that is Fallen Angels. Let me do some more research on this subject and see what I can determine. I leave tomorrow for awhile (2 weeks) wish I could see the Evil One before I leave. But I am across town and Tony kept my phone, my purse is still at the house so not a penny to my name. if Wade wasn't taking care of me I would starve to death. But all will be ok. Rick if your reading this I love you, I will always be there for you, and when I give up on you it is only for overnight! I am going to a town called Beatty to work to get us back on our feet. I got Brads number again and I will get in touch with him. Don't let the sick minds of people like Sue Kasser keep you sick, Open your heart to the goodness that I see in you, let go of the past. I will go back to escorting to make it good for us, but not as a demeaning chore (I always actually loved it) Remember Sex and Love can be separate entities. Look at us......
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

My Miracle Baby

As most of you know that I got pregnant AFTER a hysterectomy, a total miracle......except like all the other cases of this happening I lost her at 5 months. But people fail to realize that me getting pregnant at all was a miracle unto itself! I am sorry that dad ran and hid his head rather than acknowledge her exsistance... it was his loss. I am having to work out the grief on this one by myself. When I was in the hospital the other night, because I was still showing and testing positive for pregnancy, but no baby was there....... it broke my heart. BUT I had to face facts, a real man is there for ALL of his children not just the ones that he chooses to love. Docs put me thru some weird treatment and now my waist is back to normal and I started back to excercise yesterday.

Don't You just love those Epiphany Mornings (Spelt wrong I am sure)

Oh my heck....... I just love the flood of knowledge that sometimes just hits you in the face by watching a typical tv show that most take as pure entertainment. But you need to realize these messages that come thru these (nothing but entertainment venues)

I just watched Glee and saw alot of my life there. You see I was the social outcast in school...... the fat, shy, girl with bright red hair and green eyes. My social "clicks" were the other misfits that had no other place to hangout. Even though we were not that great of friends we did it to not be alone.

I saw that as different as I was I would never fit in, so I began by fighting my shyness and Boy ya see where that landed me. I can strip in front of a million people and can't sing in front of 1. See how weird is that? I hated being fat, but as a fat girl I did not have to worry about people noticing me and seeing how special I really was in my heart. I manage to fight my fat off 4 times in my lifetime and the third was with weightloss surgery........ I lost 150 pounds then gained 80 of it back! Self sabbatage again! I mean why would I want to feel good about myself and who I am? I made so many choices that everyone that I loved felt were bad choices.... so did I desearve to be thin and happy? Oh hell No...... I was nothing more than a slut stripper that had 3 kids by 2 fathers and raising them by myself. BUT if I had made different choices then....... I would not be who I am today.

And by the way I like ME!!!!! That is how I eat any and everything I want and stay a size 8......... It wasn't diet or surgery. It was finally coming to terms with myself as a human.

Mom I am sorry that your ashamed of me as your daughter because of my life in the adult field. I am sorry that I was too independent to stay right there by your side, I am sorry for everything that your angry about. BUT I don't regret a minute of my life. Every twist and turn has set me to a place where I put others BEFORE me, a place where I can fall in love with a misfit that others threw away. Where I can and will live with him in a box if it has to be that way. I know that Rick was a bad boy too..... but if I can change so very much... why can't he?

I believe in what I am doing here, I believe in all the freaks that I help, I believe that as a great Mom you will believe in me too.. after all God gave me to YOU? Because he knew that you would always love me unconditionally.

Yes I am the one that tried to integrate mainstream porn and gay porn, because I felt that human love and sex is just that HUMAN.... if God believed different we would just be androgenis ... He gave us this Earth as a playground and we turned it into a battlefield of hate. Still no regrets!

I believe that until you love yourself, how can you expect someone else to love you? How do you deserve love when you haven't earned it?

People either love me or hate me........ NO middle ground and I accept that! Many Blessings and Much Love
Carla Holland-Strange

Past is Past, the Future is Not here, NOW is all we have

Thanks to the Tyra Show for reminding me about that

Still Staying Away to Clear My MInd

I am still at my friends house trying to make conscience decisions about what path I am going to take with Rick, but I know for a fact that I don't think with my head when I am around him, but with my heart. And at this time I know for a fact that thinking with my heart is not a good thing. I can't afford to make wrong choices.

I am such a strong willed woman that I know that either choice I make will be the right one.

Lund Family Center What a Great Org

I just read about this great org. Lund Family Center...... sounds like it does alot of great work for empowering women to overcome abuse and help structure adoption services. I just love great charities like that. After I get my retreats up and running I plan on supporting something like this. A friend of Ricks is really involved with one.

Looking for INVESTORS

We are getting the contracts for Lifestyle parties and conventions here in Vegas and looking for Investors

Oh Myyyyyyyyyy

I just got an email from a lady that was drugged and molested at my favorite Resort to hate LOR!!!!!! This blog is googled so much that it is amazing!!!! I just love it! And the Amazing Sue Kasser (Vermont) that loves to hear women Beat..... Don't ya love the freedom of the internet??? I sure Do!!!!!

Well Trying to Keep My Chin Up

Lost the house today, all my wonderful friends jumped ship rather than pitch in and help me save it....but that is ok. I will survive,
Most people that know me, know that I never give up, PLUS At 3am I wake up in severe pain and ended up in the ER till 10 am! So they locked up my possessions, including my purse with my ID and my cell phone.

And then these evil bitches like Sue Kasser role in their evil fortunes. I guess I am giving up on Rick too..... he does not want to be happy. There is always someone that he can blame for his misery......

I almost said fuck you to god for this hellish year that I have gone thru, but in the end I realize that it was all a learning year and I recieved much more than I lost. Gods loves everyone, but everyone can't always struggle thru to the end.

Anyway enough whining....... Many Blessings and Much Love

Rick is very Ill

I haven't been able to post lately since the internet is off at the house and Rick has been too ill for me to leave, I am getting really scared but can't get him to the hospital.....we think it is the swine flu. He has dropped 20 pounds and not eating anything. We have worked so hard, and he has done so good. Sometimes I wonder why God does this to us, I mean we do every single thing that is asked of us....so why not give us a break every once in awhile. I am at the library and reading the book on predeath dreams, since I already have had all these dreams that he would die soon..... I read Sylvia Brownes book on dreaming and believed that it was a way to avoid his passing..... I can't deal with the computer right now cause I am so worried

Ricks first day back at home.... what a journey

Well what a day, I allowed rick here to come home and it has been a true journey. he knows that I have started to bond to the most important person in his life, and he is totally confused of how I can bond with that person, but he can't. He cried alot today and I know all he wants is to be worthy of a family..... I can't take away his pain........ I want to give him a family here ... he can't understand why people that are not blood love him so much. He is sitting on the couch right now with my friend who is a super size bbw talking quantum phsyics......LMAO

It is precious that we are the Worlds Misfits, Bad Boys/Girls with huge hearts and amazing grace. He will heal.

he said the cutest thing today "I want my Mommy" he is a child in a mans body always being the naughty child to get any kind of attention. I know that I chose the right path in giving him another chance.....................Many Blessings

About My Jobs and Why I Stay in Them with Pride

hmmmm people wonder how someone that is so in love with God can be in the sex business...... and most everyone that knows me knows that I love my work. God gave us sex, he gave us the ability to enjoy sex, not to just make babies... BUT I feel that porn and prostitution has taken a gift from God and made it dirty..... People just doing a job......... Well don't you think that God wants beauty back in Sex?

I have done scenes that made me yucky afterwards and then scenes that made me glow (Guy Disilva) Producers don't look for chemistry... I do. I want people to watch my scenes and feel the passion.... not see the fucking. I want women to watch my stuff and get turned on and maybe learn some new things. I want to shoot stuff that make women know that it is ok to be the average woman, I want to shoot real couples that love each other..... I do believe in love.

As far as the escorting is concerned, I am extremely picky...... I only see clients that need me, that respects me, most of my clients become friends and I never see them again as clients. A good escort never calls and bugs clients cause they need money, she never stores their numbers, she never tries to breakup marriages! Ladies if your husband wanders (and most do) pray that they find an escort like me..... someone that stays healthy, emotionally and physically. Not that I have escorted in a longtime..... gosh I miss it. But my path has been set in a different direction, Soon as my investors stop jacking me around I am going to start the Sensual Healing and Wellness Institute.... to help couples work together on the sexual issues, to show people how to lose weight by eating amazing gourmet foods that they cook themselves, to stay healthy thru meditation and prayer, your mind is what controls your health......your sense of wellbeing is generated thru your mind first. It is a very powerful organ of your body.

Hope this gives you an insight of why a stay emotionally clean in what most people see as sewage jobs....... and I have found many ladies that are just like me. I am truely Blessed

To Rick

Rick, I know that your out of jail and I know that you read everything that I write........ so here goes.

I will not be at court, I am not afraid of you......... point is I love you, I have always loved you as you love me! If you ever raise a hand or a voice at me again I will crush you! and no this is not a victim loving thier abuser..... I knew what I was getting into when I allowed Mr Evil in my life. He is a fucked up person that does not believe that he deserves love, so he tries to prove it every single day. Well I still CHOOSE to love you.

You may call me, you may come over and get some clean clothes and good food, you may grovel at my feet and beg my forgiveness........I lost my investor because of that gorgeous black eye, and my magazine. You will not be stupid! You will not be rude! You will not chase every woman that walks in this house.... you don't need them... you adore a Goddess.

Never think that I am weak because I am kind and loving, you know I am a strong woman.

Now to the bad news, our darling drew is gone.......he has been missing for 4 days and I keep calling the hospitals and coroner..... I have a houseful of people, so get home and help me get it cleaned up. I am not promising that you can stay, I am promising that you have an option to have a home and a family..... I would never leave you at the rock and forget you.

Now you have all this in writing so the cops wont arrest you for being near me.

Carla Holland-Strange

Found a Great Attorney

Well I found GREAT attorney that is going to take my case against Sue and Wal Mart!!!!!! Yeahhhhhhh. I have to wait till I pick up mine and Marques phone records to prove call times and the police reports. I have to get an attorney in Texas for the live oak thing..... and before you think it. I am not sue crazy.. I always let things slide except for the Costa Rico thing and it made newsheadlines and the Doctor is now out od business. I will NOT be treated as if I am nothing.

I am a strong woman in a mans world here in Vegas and if that can't beat me down what can?

Ricks and sues crap cut me out of Adultcon, a photoshoot and I have to have an investment meeting with Sir John tomorrow!

Dang I spell bad when I am on a blogging tear

hehehehehhe, I have been reading past blogs, and I saw all my typos.........but wont aplolgize for them! That is my PASSION shining thru. I tell u my soft heart is going to be the end of me..... I don't want to give up, I mean look at the ones I saved .... but at what point do you put yourself first? I am too bruised to work, or be seen and this is the major week of my life. I will get thru! I need to get alot of work today on a shoot even if I don't get to do it myself and then I am going to get a lawyer and Sue Sue..........heheheheheheheehe. Very Publiclly!

My secret friends that have been calling me, send me all that dirt on this woman.

Well sweiing is going down but the bruises are intense

Now if your sitting on the phone at 12:25am with a man that is begging your permission to kill a woman...... wouldn't you call the police? Doesn't that make you an accessory to the fact? I mean that you would knowingly sit on a phone and listen to a woman die?

I am sitting here and brewing more and more about Sue rather than Rick, because she had no danger and she still chose, to leave unprotected. Even if she is in Vermont, you can get cops to a house in NV,

Anyone that reads my blogs know that have no fear, I will battle the devil if I feel that I am right. If my blogs re not strong enough (9000 readers a day) Then I will call the National Enquirer, My friend is a reporter with the Washington Post, My ex roommate is a reporter for the Review Journal here....... there are police photos and phone records that I am going to pull too!

I am a true believer in forgiveness, but I will NOT forget! Kathy thank you so much for your call, and remember what I said....your calling is to be here and be strong. Things truely happen for a reason, last night had to be my awakening that I can't save the world.......just parts of it. Until Rick lets go of his own demons then he will never accept the beauty of Gods love and acceptence. And as for Sue.... well we will see. My email address is earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com ... Sue called as soon as I posted the last blog, I will not accept calls from you. Rick does love to talk don't he?

How Does a Woman Give Permission for and other Woman to Be Hurt?

Well it finally happened last night, Rick decided to go off the deepend, and what is funny is that he called his Wealthy Influnencial Friend Sue and ask her before he beat mhy face in and wrap a lamp cord around my throat! He kept asking her if he could do me...... as in kill me. Luckily I had enough strength to kick him in the balls and run.... Soooo needless to say Richard John Diagiacomo JR is sitting in jail, plus I added a restraining order and the alarms are set on the house again.

I try so hard to not give up on people but he is a lost cause I have wasted to much time on......... PLUS we found crack and I believe that is what drove up his meaness. Now I am losing work for all next week and can't pay my bills because these people can not open their eyes, to kindness.

Sue I haven't decided yet if I am going to post ur full name tomorrow, but I probably will........because you were having an orgasm thinking of him killing me.... it is your little freaky thing that rocks your boat. Feelin his evil and violence...... don't you live in the governors mansion? Alittle research and I will know everything about a woman that is so evil that she would get kicks off of anothr womans pain.

Red Rock Mansion

I will be hosting parties and events at the famous Red Rock Mansion! We just set in motion the purchase and will start the remodeling next week. This is a 10,000SQ mansion sitting on 2 acres, indoor and outdoor pools, indoor and outdoor hot tubs, 600sq fountain in the foyer, tennis courts and putting green.... Gorgeous Bar and Theatre Area!

We will offer gourmet catering, Weddings, Events, Private parties, Weekend Retreats... you tell us what you want!!!!! Clothing Optional is also available.

My Near Death Experiences... All Documented

I was awakened this morning by something that I should tell you all about, well actually alot of things, but I can only tell you alittle this morning and more this afternoon.

I was born to a 16 yo mother and a 17 yo father in Texas May 2nd 1961, and my birth name is Carla Michele Holland. Life never was too easy but early on I bean to have near death experiences at 9 I got Scarlett Fever and ran 106 for 3 days, y mom bathed me in witch hazel and ice packs. Doctor told me at 15 I would NEVER be able to hae a child (I had 10 pregnancies by the time I was 23)in my 20's I had 2 strokes, cancer (hysterectomy) In Anchorage at Humana Hospital. Dr Oti (Anchorage) found a pituitary tumor n my brain at 24 (that cased the strokes) I have NEVER had it removed! Shit there has been so many that I can't even remember all of the dates but I remember the hospitals so you can verify anything I tell you! In fact most have been on TV.... Montel

Pancreatitis to the point of ICU RDH in Dallas
Staph and Blood poisoning Scott and White Temple Texas (Dr. Said I was the frst to jump a heart patient for surgery)
Ludwig Angina Disorder with a 10% chance to live Dec 2008..... I walked out of ICU Dec 24th 2008
26 poisons administered (enough to kill 5 men is what the doctors said)

Now look at my transformations mentally, emotionally and physically that I have gone thru in the last few years.... I lost 160 pounds from a size 28 to a 6! My hair turned from Red to Blonde overnight (I know that I call it my gray but it is blonde) My bone structure in my face has changed drastically, I love feel and act younger than I did at 30 and now I am 48!!!! My plastic surgeries have been tummy tuck, thigh lift (lousy one) and 11 breast butchers. NO facial surgeries at all.

NOW the big one..... a baby coming after a hysterectemy. I have never read the bible,but at 6am I have beeen ordered to read revelations and I guess that is what I wlll do this morning........... Many Blessings

There was a persecuton of an Angel that must be righted, and a rebirth of the knowledge that GOD loves you, that GOD and No other is the way to save this sewage bin that we call home. Don't shoot the messenger because you don't like the message.

New Photos of my baby bump

Book Deal... and of course Live Oak Resort, WalMart and PrePaid Legal.

I have been offered a book deal and probably won't be blogging too much anymore. Except of course about the businesses that I feel shaft the people that keep them in business. Like Live Oak Resort, WalMart and PrePaid Legal...... You see I am an internet guru and I know what googling and pinging can bring to the forefront. I saw the article on Wal Mart Stocks yesterday and I am a great person for speaking my mind! Ask the Doctor in Costa Rico that butchered me.... or you can catch the Montel Show where we exposed him. Think I am going to Use Glen Learner for an attorney, tried to give the companies time to do what is right before I hired him BUT...... they think that us little guys are not very important and have no right to common dignity at their businesses.

I did also write the the Washington County Judge yesterday..... Time will tell. You see this is not about me.... it is about every single woman that goes there and is NOT protected. There are alot of amazing Adult Lifestyle Resorts and what makes them amazing is that a single woman can go there and feel safe.

Wal Mart, Live Oak Resort and PrePaid Legal

anyone want to join me in a class action case against either of these companies???? WalMart's Equate Brand was not properly labeled to warn against raised blood pressure and the effects of Ibuprofin PM.......... I have tons of hospital bills that they will not acknowledge.

Then there is PrePaid Legal..... follow their lawsuit trail to see that they do not do a damned thing that they claim to........ I prepaid a year and got no help out of 5 times that I contacted them for help.

And of Course there is Live Oak Resort in Texas, Have you been hurt there or sexually harrassed by the owner? Were you an employee that had to perform sexual favors for Larry to keep your job? Were you a guest that was attacked by single male guest and put in harms way? Yet the same male guest would be allowed to come back the very same week! Have you looked at your credit card charges from there and noticed how padded your bill was?? Did you notice the heavy septic smells? Or that the pool and spa are not chlorinated properly (chlorine poisoning) Or that the walk ways are not properly lighted? or that there is absolutely NO security? And I think that it is funny that small county Washington on the Brazos justice is ignoring it all out there.........can we say Payoff!

If you would like to join me an a class action suit on any of these companies feel free to call me at 702-533-3291. I intend to get the ACLU involved too. I am on a mission that, no one has the right to walk on us little guys anymore.

I am available for private Awakening Sessions

I am being mobbed since I began this blog, by people asking me to help them thru their transition into an awakening, Sadly to say I can't help everyone unless I get some kind of donations, I mean I spend about 8 hours aday on the phone sometimes helping people thru this, I can't afford to spend all day helping, because I then can not pay my bills.

I know that it is an extremely painful time and a confusing time, and what I tell you eases that but I have to have a way to pay my bills..... not to mention it is all very draining.

I will tell you though you need to understand why you are physically changeing, emotionally changing, being woke up all hours of the night, why you have the need to drink, your whole appearence will start changeing...... Look at Lindsy Lohan .... she is definately changing.... Kirstie Alley is the one I worry most about. You see I can spot immediately who is one of us, and no I do NOT believe that everyone is. We are all on different spiritual levels so why would we all be in the graduating class this lifetime?

Thing is, I see alot of people that die during the transition and that is what I am here to help with, you do not have to die! Some of the things to do are so simple that it will amaze you! and after your transitioning you will be so at peace with yourself

Rick

Well Rick told me that Jan (his ex) reads my blog each day.............aww I am so honored. Well what would you like to know my darling Jan? How I spritualy maintain a badboy drunk? Well it isn't easy......... you have to love and accept him the way he is, and when you love and accept someone they bloom................ you see I dont believe in AA............your mind is a powerful agent and in that if you stand up and say I am ???? I am an alcoholic........... then you ARE an alcoholic! Our minds and spirits are an amazing organ..........strong and powerful. now as far is rick is concerned Jan, he does well 98% of the time..............but then there is that 2% that people like you, his mom, his sister put in him...........the total self destruction and lack of self worth.

well enjoy my blog Jan, when you grow and learn to accept his freaky ass then he is yours.... I myself choose to wait on someone that gets a nose bleed from the power of our sex.......someone that knows that I am the other half of his whole............but fears US. Jan I will continue to be there for your idiot, I will continue to pick him up and love him, I will continue to keep him safe and fed, I will continue to tell him that he has worth! Someone has to care about Rick......and I guess it is put on me to not give up on him............... Many Blessings But we do have AMAZING SEX!!!! do you miss it????

Homemade Butter, Sorbets, Sauces, Glazes

God I am good.............you can not believe all the home cookking I can do now!!!!! Getting famous for food.....thought it would be sex

The Ultimate Article on Transitioning to an Awakening

Researching all the time about the changes that have occurred in my life has lead me to many great articles, but this article has made me see that our World as we know it is definately over and the winds of change have begun in a huge way http://www.newenergy-wisdom-academy.com/html/awakening_symptoms.html

I will be there for people going thru the transition........in fact as of this time I have helped over 20

I need some insights on how to become human

Ok folks I need some insights on how to be more human. You see for years I am there for anyone that ever needs me, a place to stay, a place to eat, a hug, my last dime..... and throughout the years I have lost all my possessions, thrown into jail by my friends and family, lost my pets.... but I kept on with this endless spiral of belief in these very same people. I asked a roomful of them the other night.... why i could never come first to one of them. When things are going good, they put me right out of their thoughts...... But when things are bad or confusing and they need clarity........ they run straight to Momma.

Now here is my dilema, how do I stop caring? How to do I harden my heart to not care? I mean I am totally confused. I lost my baby 2 days ago and I was still going to LA to do the Walk For Aids and could not even get a ride from one of them..... much less a sponsor! Tony has lived with me off and on since 2007 and put in $120 in all that time....... then bitched cause he had to give me a ride. I called a number of friends to be with me when I lost the baby, and only one showed up! I have been in ICU 3 times and not one time did family or friends stay at the hospital with me! I rescued over 900 dogs in 7 years and my animals went to the pound when I was drugged and thrown in jail!

What I am saying is....... no matter how it hurts.... no matter what I lose...... No matter who stabs me in the back....... I won't change. Don't ask me why I love my God so much because, he doesn't answer my prayers too often either........ but I know that he is doing this for a reason. I haven't even been able to do an appointment because I was pregnant, my parties were people just showing up and not contributing towards the cause.... Except for the wonderful bands Smiling Slut Puppies, 90 degrees, and Elliot Zabo .... Ya'll were a true blessing! I also want to thank Jeanette Johnson my ex boss for making sure that I had a roof over my head.

My prayers are for humans to learn to care again, the computers and internet have made you kind of distant and cold. Are you replacing love, and friendships with a cold computer screen?

I forgot, Drew puts me first........ he was on the streets for 2 years and homeless..... he loves me.
I love all these people and even if I never get put first for a minute, i will still love them.

Enough venting..................................Many Blessings Carla Holland-Strange

going out tonight

I need to get out for awhile and listen to some music, So I am going to King Tuts for awhile. I am starting my Making Love Series this week for Showtime......keep fingers crossed

Visions and Legalities

I have been up for a few hours because of a vision, I think it began last night but I know that I got it full on this morning at 4am. Last night I thought it might be me, but now I think that it is my father that we will lose pretty soon. BUT just in case it is me...Since I am such a high risk pregnancy right now I want this in writing so no one can fight it! If anything happens to me, Taylor is to go to my Daughter Amanda Kaye Gates, no one else! I think I will be fine, but this vision makes me want to make sure that she is cared for and Amanda is the ONLY one that I would trust with this task. So now that is all in order...... back to my Dad. I pray that in his heart that he knows that I love him, always loved him and always will love him......... I hate that I was a problem for him.... I hate that he regreted me....... I hate that he never knew me or my kids.

Unexplained Pregnancy

I have been going over and over how I could possibly be pregnant AFTER a hysterectomy........I was talking to my Doctor friend and he said that he is seeing the weirdest cases lately here in Vegas... last week alone he saw a 10 year old and an 80 year old! Pregnant!

Now if any of you read my blogs from way back when I started them you will remember that i felt that I had been drugged until I went back to Texas. I have been doing soooo many studies on the Vegas Water supply, they found so many drugs in our water here in Vegas.... and the marine life had even started mutating sexes..... google it if you don't believe me! If it is the water every infertile couple should move to Vegas..lol A Baby Oasis in the Desert!

I believe that besides a Miracle my baby was produced from the hormones in the water, my healthy diet, my healthy habits, my amazing sex life, walking, swimming............all the new things that I have brought into my life!

Look at Rick and Drew (both proclaimed alcoholics) ( I don't believe in addictions) they are both doing amazing. In fact Rick has completely redone our landscaping and Drew is keeping our home perfect. Yes I am alittle partial...I have fallen in love with Rick..... we make each other truly happy! And we are both so driven in our company that we are forming. I know I am blessed and I think that he realizes that he is too. You see he can actually have a drink and not crave another, addictions are all formed from your fears and guilts....with me he knows that I don't judge nor care about his past...........so it is easy for him to be Rick with me.

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The Party Yesterday

Party was great.... 3 bands and over 100 people, but it ended me in bed (bleeding) My doc was here though, and I am ok so far. It was embarrassing with the friggin pool looking horrid, my pool guy is crappy, then Joe had said that he would do it....but he didn't. Guess he is too scared to actually see me and acknowledge the baby..... I took him off my facebook so he can just forget we exsist............. I mean I dont want shit out of anyone for Taylor. I mean I have raised my kids, I do know how to do this by myself......lol....... I am never by myself. she has a huge family waiting on her.

I know I sound grumpy today and actually I'm not......... I am getting in bitch mode cause I have to promote my new series to Showtime and You have to put up a bitch front to not let them roll over you.

So Close To the Party

Well our huge event is Sat for the Walk For Aids. I am so proud of Rick he is doing so well. I realized alot in the last few days, Love is not suppose to be painful, it isn't suppose to take alot of work.... it just is. Love is knowing and understanding each other, never expecting a person to change, And most of all being proud of them for who they are. He isn't drinking at all, he is helping with every single aspect of the party, and he holds the baby in his arms every night.

You see I thought I needed Joe because he was perfect, no drinking, no drugs, pretty to look at, talented.ya know what every woman wants.

I mean who would want Rick? total fuck up bad boy? I do..... I realized today that I love him...... After all I was the total fuck up bad girl....now look at me.
Many Blessings

Sooooo Strange

It is so strange that my transition started way before I ever heard of Laws Of Attraction, The Secret, or the American Monk. i gained these abilities way BEFORE I knew that it exsisted anywhere else. No wonder so many people are diagnosed with mental disorders, they get these abilities and don't know how to train them! They let it build into anger, fear, and sometimes suicide! Most of the time they are real!!!! Those voices in your head, the erational thought patterns. You need to chanel it! You need to realize what is going on . I keep seeing so many kids going off the deep end right now and I an thinking that most of them are the Indigo Children! I know that my children are true Indigos, I wish I had the abilities while raising them that I have now.


Go back to the beginning of my blog, to the beginning of my transitions, see the differences and witness the pure knowledge base that I have gained. We have it.......and unlike the teachers I don't believe everyone has it. I think if you say everyone it is easier to sell more stuff. I know that the teachers truely have it.........but not everyone. I have learned to see the people that have the abilities. I am not saying they are superior, hell some are homeless people. They mask with addictions..... I know I did it forever.

I have enough data and healings now to know that I am right. I laughed last night, a young man came to me and said his brother got all the bad genes...........cause he heard voices and had superpowers! I want to find that brother! I am sick of turning on the news and seeing another kid killed because he can't chanel his energies and no one knows what they are all about!

Our job should be saving the children first!

let me tell you, I have lost 160 pounds, stopped 3 addictions, stopped angers and aggressions, all with training my mind to stop....... I have seen miracles that should not be possible ( like me being pregnant) self healings, demons excersied...... I know that ALL things are possible. Never give up on your child. I didn't

My Truths

Here are some of the truths that I hold dear........take them or leave them

Point A to Point B= Talk directly to your God, not in the name of another
Agree to Disagree Never Ignore
Charity should begin at home and home is our World
The ONLY thing that will save Our world is Love, Peace and Happiness
Help the negative become positive, but realise that negativity will rub off on you (keep a distance)
We can't save everyone............BUT we sure as hell can try
Thank your God everyday for the good, the bad, and the bland
When you need something ASK.many times not just once........ your never ignored
God does not judge you because of your job, your sexuality, your race= He does not make mistakes
I am a Porn Goddess, an Escort Goddess, a Minister Goddess... He loves all of them
Treat people the way you want to be treated.
You can change a life with a kind word.
Believe in Miracles!!!!!!!!

Totally Amazes Me

I vowed to never blog negative on here anymore because I felt that negative would bring negative............BUT I do have something to say. How can you be so understood by strangers, and yet the people nearest you don't listen to the truths that your saying? Is it the Forest for the trees thing? I mean I have been preaching about how our hard times are there to make our good times shine, and that we get lean times before our bounties........ and the ones closest to me smile and nod their head (but dont listen) then a tv minister comes on and they are totally enthralled with the same message that I have been giving them all week!!!!!!!

My family did that too...... it is like putting a strangers values and beliefs as more important than someone that you claim to love. How does that happen? Agree to Disagree......... but never ignore.

As The Baby Turns

heheheheheheh got a huge scare last night.... I went out and was hurting so much that I had to come back home! Thought I was losing Taylor, but she was just growing. ... As is my boobs, nails, and hair!

Love + Passion + Commitment = Forever

I was asked an amazing question the other day.... A guy that I WAS dating asked "Carla your the perfect wife, why not get married and just let someone take care of YOU?" You see that has always brought wonder to the people in my life.... I mean I cook amazingly, keep a gorgeous home, fantastic in the sack, put family and friends first......... Perfect Wife material. But I don't settle. You see I believe in marriage so strongly that I will never settle again.

Wanna hear a big secret? I sleep alone everynight! Yes I love having people in my home, but I don't shack up................ funny coming from a sex professional huh? I have been married before and I felt that when it fell apart I had failed....... I now know that I didn't fail the marriage did. I got married for the wrong reasons........none of them were for love. One to get out of the house, one for a man to raise my kids (thank you Robert) and the last because he made me laugh. None of these things equal FOREVER.

You asked why being a sex therapist and marriage counselor is so important to me? Because I believe in it. The family unit is the perfect creation IF maintained! I mean you get your car tuned up to last longer, then why not your marriage?

Sometimes you need to be taught to fall back in love...... and sometimes it takes an outside source! That is where I come in. I know for a fact that an amazing partner makes an amazing mate. Someone that your in awe just looking at, someone that even in sloppy pj's and toussled hair makes your heart rip out of your chest. Someone that you love to talk to, smell, taste and when you come together it isn't just amazing, it is pure beauty. The beauty that only God can create. See marriage weren't made here on Earth, they were made by God. We just took that out of his hands lately.

You see I guess that old saying, if you can't do then teach is true. I am in love, my spirit has always been in love with this person, but this Earth may not be where we are suppose to be together and I am ok with that....... I won't settle. Plus I am blessed and I have enough to keep me busy.
Carla Holland-Strange

An Amazing Awakening

My journey has been amazing and the transformation even puts me in awe. You see when the transition began I felt that it was a nightmare that I could not wake up from. I mean all this crazy shit that has no earthly reasoning. BUT as I look back it has always been there in my life, when my great grandfather died I was 6 and i still remember him coming to me and letting me know that he was still with me. I have run from this most of my life, and not understood that it is the purpose that I am here.

God gives each of us talents and abilities........... wonderous gifts. My gifts are the gifts of sight, healing, compassion, empathy, and unconditional love. My job is to recognise and embrace them not run from them.

I tell my God everyday how much I love and appreciate him.....but now that my time is getting back into high demand... I don't spend enough time telling people in my life what they mean to me.

Mom, we don't have to agree to Love each other.......... But if tonight is the last night of our lives I want you to know that your my hero.

Kaye, I love you.... you have the same abilities that I do..... your just scared of them. Venture out and touch that inner soul... think of all the people that you can help. You have to love yourself for others to find you!

Gen, Jeremy, Brandon, Amanda..........what can I say. Your the best kids a woman could ever have...... your lights are so bright.

To all my amazing friends, all I can say is Thank God that I have you.

AJB.... we are forever connected.............we are forever atuned...........I will always feel your essence............ together or apart.

To my Darling Taylor Anne Holland, I pray we get thru this............ Your making me really tired lately.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

Did I Forget?

thank you my darling God for each and every blessing, stumbling block and hardship...... it truely makes us stronger people.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

My Letter to Investors

I need an investor that wants to be a visionary......... Las Vegas is going to boom again real soon and you should not put all of your eggs in one basket! I need an investor that is ready to get on the ground floor of 4 amazing business w/property collateral! I am looking at a 6 mil investment with a 7% interest and a 3 year payoff............you can't lose! This is a win win. and I have to get this started before my talk show starts Next Monday. You see I am a well known Adult Business Professional and I have a nationwide show starting next Monday on the Adult Broadcast Network. You can check me out on the Adult Who's Who.... Under Vegas Adult Talent. You see I am good at what I do because I love it! It is my PASSION not my job. When you love something you make it work. Just like a Mother nurturing a child that she has born......we put our whole spirit in it! Now total I need 6 M, for 3 projects, I can take one investor for all of them or we can break it all up. I have a winning team in place, this includes adult businesses, real estate management, talent, and flipping. I have the connections to get these houses sold, I also want to get a Vegas Team together for the Show Flip This House, I am starting a Sensual Healing Resort for Couples....... as you can see I know my business backwards and forwards. If interested please feel free to contact me at the number below. Vegas Adult IncCastingProductionLifeCoachingReal estate managmentRepairs and remodelingLandscapingSensual HealingCateringParty PlanningWeddingsCleaning Services (topless available)Dating ServiceMassage TherapistPrivate Make-Up ArtistPrivate HairdressersWe are the Ultimate Concierge Service for Vegas!No one is more respected! I have refs from all over the World for my hard work and sincerity!Carla Holland-Strangecall 702-291-8565

Hurting Really Bad Today

I am going to bed for the day, Rick was so evil last night.....all because I told him about the conversation with his sister. He had been doing so well. Hi ex called last night and finished it all off about how bad he is. So he busted a few dishes, and went on a rant. So I kicked him out today. Fuck why can't people let others get well. Now my baby is paying the price.

OMG No Wonder Rick Drinks

I just got off the phone with Ricks family, no wonder that he does not believe that he deserves a normal life. Before his sister even asked who I was she judged me as a weak woman that Rick latched onto to live off of. I hung up on her twice because she has no idea what horrible beliefs are pumped into someone that feels their own family does not love them. Me weak? That is a total laugh. I would fight a mountain lion for family or friends!

How can anyone get well when they have no one that believes in them? I get mad at my mom because she was too in control of my life and did not understand who I am as a person.....but she would NEVER ... never mind.

When he gets home I am going to wrap my arms around him and let him know that someone gives a damned. And you know what he loves me and Taylor. even when he knows that she is Joes.

Thank You God for this Crappy Day

hehehehehehe We should be thankful for every single day.... be it good or be it bad. This one sucks but I thank my God for it! Rick came back last night and I wasn't going to let him in the house, he stunk from stale beer........ but it was amazing I felt his humble heart when he cried that he wanted me to help him get over his addiction. You see I know that he is a good guy, he just has a demon in him that he does not want anymore.

You see I don't believe in addictions, I believe they are a way to punish ourselves for our fears and guilts. Once you let go of your fears and guilts you can let go of your addictions. I know I have been there and done that! In my life time I spent 4 straight years on crack and quit in one day.......... Then started drinking like a sailor for 3 straight years hardcore and then have a drink not pick up another.... did meth for 4 months and quit in one day. All because I realized that I was punishing myself with these actions. I had to get down to my fears and guilts and release them to allow myself to heal. we self medicate to smother these things down and not have to face them. Get some balls and face those fears!

I stayed fat for years, BECAUSE I was terrified of being fat........once I wasn't afraid anymore the weight started falling off. I was terrified of getting old and soon as I lost that fear I started looking younger and feeling younger!

i have faith in Rick, he actually wants it this time. Even though he acts bad ass to everyone, he would never harm me (that is the gangsta thing in him I guess) So my meditations and prayers are all for him today. He turns to mush when Taylor is kicking him.... I think my fall last night scared the shit out of him. I talked him into getting to know his kiddos, I think that is his main guilt. but today is the first day of the rest of your life.

With a Humble Heart all is Possible
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

Gosh I am getting Bad

Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile, but I have been so busy getting ready for the new show... It starts next Monday at 7pm on adultbroadcastnetwork.com. Then I have been still looking for investors for my retreats, surrogacy programs, and real estate flipping.

Well Doc verified that I am pregnant yesterday. Which in my heart I never believed because I had a hysterectemy when I was 23! Taylor is apparently attached to my abdomen wall, They want to do an abortion but I would never do that. If I had that mentality I would not have Amanda right now..... my doctor wanted to do an abortion when I was pregnant with her and now I am still here and she is my joy. I don't like doctors they have given me a death sentence so many times, and I am still here.......... there was the pancreatitis, lupus, cancer, 2 strokes, Ludwig Angina and God has allowed me to remain on this Earth. So I guess I will do this bedrest thing as much as possible. I am eating great food, I was getting alot of excercise by swimming, and walking (still going to try alittle bit) until I start hurting again. I do my meditation and prayers 50 times aday and I stay centered.

Rick has become a problem child though. I started dating him to get over Joe and it has been a nightmare, it has been like being with Steve Murphy again except that I am a stronger woman this time and am not afraid of anything or anyone. so I am telling him today that he has to go!

Anyway we are doing a photoshoot today and I am going to post some photos of me and Taylor...She is going to be perfect I am sure of......but I need your prayers cause it does take a village to raise a child and I won't let a Doc condem her to death........soooooo pray in Gods name for my baby to get here safely........... ONLY In GODS name please. Point A to point B!
Carla Holland-Strange

Friends Lost

I miss Thomas so bad, so a friend got me a dog yesterday............her name is Cookie. She isn't Thomas and she won't take his place, but I will love her.

I still intend to get the pups up here and finish their training as seeing eye dogs, once I get the Rancho House. I love this house and am so thankful for Jeanette, BUT Rancho is my home.

Besides my animals, I miss Rocky. Even though I feel that he betrayed me, I know that I loved him. I did not love the others, but I felt that Rocky was my gay son that I had always wanted.... not that I dont adore my straight sons. I miss Darren, my silly little fucktard. Not as a husband, but as a wonderful friend that made me laugh and enjoy my life.

MJ I think about you everyday, and I know that you are here. I think that you know what is right in your heart....and remember that God will love and forgive anything that you have done. But the best thing that you can do is show people the power of Love, Happiness and Peace.

Clothing Drive

I need to get stuff for these homeless that I am working with... I need clothes, household goods, toys, call me and I will pick them up....... even though I don't have a car.

Parties, Locations, Real Estate, Couples Retreats

I am still working on all of my plans............I will never let my dreams die that is for sure! Want to hear all of them? I am enjoying blogging this morning and getting alot of it out of my thoughts and down in writing.
I want to buy preforeclosures and lease option to the families that are losing them
I want to have network parties, location shoots, Spiritual Meetings
I want to start couples retreats and teach people how to fall back inlove thru sensuality
I want to get the surrogacy program off the ground to help the Desiree Alliance

You see a woman has the rights to rent her body if she chooses, and she has the right to get out of the business if she chooses! And if she needs help that is what we are here for either direction!

Gay Marrigages

How wonderful that Vegas is recognizing Gay Unions (marriages to me) I want to perform commitment ceremonies I think....... I never believed that anyone should be denied the right to commit to the one they love. I mean if you think about it spirits are said to not have a true sex. So why is it unthinkable that true Soul Mates can not have been put in the same sex bodies here? And by the way God does not make mistakes.
Carla Holland-Strange

Long Time

Well it has been awhile since I blogged and to be honest alot has kept me from it. This amazing spirituality that has bloomed in me has been truely hard lately. I know that I have a path... it is just so hard to know if I am doing it right or not.

I took in 3 homeless people this week... I figured that if I was going to talk the talk I should walk the walk.............and I know that your going to say that I am crazy after the hell that I went thru earlier this year with my roommates that took everything that I owned. But as I told Darren one day if I stop helping people then they have won the battle. (they as in the demons) Those are the inner spirits that want you to believe evil in everything.

But anyway..... here goes what has been going on. I met Rick at the bus stop where he was out begging. I gave him $2 knowing that he would buy beer with it.... but was amazed that he bought the beer for a homeless friend with severe DT's...... How amazing is that? Well instead of getting on the bus and going to the Strat for breakfast I decided to go meet these people. I was entralled with their wanting to hear what I had to say about my love for my God.... now to be honest I saw a couple giggle about me being an escort/sex surrogate/minister.........Hell I would giggle over that one. I invited them home for a BBQ (after all I am famous for my parties) I brought them home, got them showered, clothes washed and fed. They filled my heart with the knowledge that I made the right choice and did not go with my fears. Ruth got a job yesterday (she is my heart) Ruth is a 50something true goddess that fell on hard times but never lost her amazing grace. Doug is her BF and he has an interview today and I think he will be working tomorrow.... he is my hardcase in that he does not want to not drink........ then there is Rick I adore him..........but his demons are beating him unmercifully. You see he does not have to be homeless, he is doing it to self punish. But in the end I see them transforming everyday.

I know that it isn't an overnight thing, my transformation is going on a year now..... but it is hard for me sometimes... I feel that I never get a day to just be me and have fun without trying to fix someone.........now I shouldn't bitch my blessings are many!

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Special Knowledges and Sensing

Many Blessings and Good Morning

I tried to write this last night, but my little computer fairey just woould not let it go thru.....guess it wasn't the right time for it.

As most of you know, I get alot of visions since I nearly died in Dec, in fact on Dec 24th 2008 I did die for a couple of minutes. Well One of the Visions that I have is that Michael Jackson is NOT dead, I think that the world got too much for him and he felt that he was better to his kids to not be here. Well the reason this is so wierd to me is that I am not a fan, nor do I get star struck, been around alot of stars in my business. I believe that he was railroaded with the child molesting thing... special wierd people with abilities are strange, but NEVER harm a child. It just is not in us.

Now there is one thing if you just want to checkout, but another if someone else is getting hurt thru this, that Doctor tho he should never enabled the drugs, did not kill anyone. So Michael comeout from "under ground" and take responsibility. I knew I was right when your best friends did not attend your memorial. Sometimes you trust your friends with knowledges more than your family..... I know other things that I won't put in here.... but it is more proof that I know what I am talking about.

and No Mom and Kaye this still won't let you put me away for being a nut..hehehehehehehehe! I am still taking care of myself, working, keeping my weight off, praying everyday, escorting, but staying true to my God and knowledge that he loves me...... no matter how I earn my living. Because in A Course in Miracles I learned, our Bodies are Temporary Our Souls and Spirits forever

The Unknown of Healings

Well this was a wierd day and it totally knocked me out..... I have been alittle upset with Debbie and I decided not to go over to her house today for the photo shoot, but got one of my crazy signs that a I needed to use my gift with a friend with lung cancer. Now you got to understand that I don't understand this gift at all.... when I started with Patty, she seemed to get alot worse with her back. So of course it scares me when the friend has fucking lung cancer (and there is tension between us) so how is that going to work?

Well I got there and you could feel the tension down to my spine.... in fact it felt like I walked into a toxic dump site.... then add on that there were 5 god/goddess energies there. Now a God/Goddess energy sounds heavenly but it isn't (think that is why I was miserable at my Moms) It is hardcore draining power struggles. Well I had barely been there one hour and Deb started throwing up and I became physically depleted.... you see it is as painful for the healer as it is for the ill (and top it that it is an ill Goddess ... Oh My) i haven't been drinking any wine for awhile, but had to numb some of the toxcins running thru me.

Except for Patty, who asked me to rub her back (cause she felt that I could heal) No one has ever known that I was doing a heling when I hugged them goodbye and asked God to heal........ so tomorrow is a huge knowledge for me....... I know that Patty is healing (degeneration of the spine) but am I strong enough for Lung Cancer?

Well I guess only time will tell..... soon as I got home It knocked me out and I woke up to blog all of this 6 hours later.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

Photos of my New Shoot....

Photo Shoot Today

I have a photo shoot today, so call if anyone needs me
many blessings

My Witnessing

Ok the title is alittle misleading, I am not going to sit here and bash my past........ to be honest it got me here to who I am now. Yes I have been on drugs (meth and crack) used to drink like a fish and I still can at times, posed nude, stripped, did adult films, escorted......... Never stole, hurt people, always kind and giving.

I don't just give money to charities I give me (not being holier than thou) I think the best gifts that we can give is ourselves, our energies, our healings..... I have found that is my best ability is healing. It drains me dry, but I seem to be able to take the pain away. I have had 3 healings so far and they have worked so well that it shocked me to my inner core. Who knew.hehehhehehehe.

I am excited in this gift, but never want it to go to an ego thing or then it won't work. I have to stay humble even when I am getting so excited about the things that I have been able to do lately!
Many Blessings and Peace Be with YOU

Christian Concert OH MY

Well I had my forst experience with a Christian Rock concert and I wanted to run as fast as I could to get out of there. What is sad is that I know that the artist that was performing was doing it for the right reasons, he had a true wake up call about his calling to the Awakening. BUT it isn't well defined yet I think.

Thruout the concert there was moshing and alot of negative energy, that brewed an underlying violence, 3 of the bands screamed their words and no one understood the actual message. After the concert I saw at least 4 acts of malice, kids smoking pot and cigarettes, the wounds of the ones in the mosh pit, and a little girl that is about 13 that had to explain to her mother why she got a busted lip at a Christian Concert. These kids were there to see a Rock Show not find the love of God.

Don't get me wrong, I thank God for amazing souls like this that want to give back to the youth and try to right wrongs that they feel they have done in their past...... but the positive teaches so much more than the negative. I took some video of the crowd at the concert and talked to some kids after ..... will load it today after I figure all of this out.

Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange

Letter to my Investors

Hello My Dear Friends
This is to let you know that I am back in Vegas, and I wanted to thank you all for being so patient with me while I struggled to find Investors for my resorts, I slugged thru and God did not seem to think that is what I was suppose to do and I did not get funding, but that is ok.......... We tried. When one door closes another opened and this opened in a big way for me.

First I was honored to meet each of you wonderful people
Second I came to learn who I am in the business world.... A good person that will never stoop to underhanded deals to make a buck
Third I realized that more than anything else I want to give back to Las Vegas and Pay it Forward as you might say.... Since so many wanted my ideas here in Vegas (alot of them stolen) Here are a few for Free
Lets buy and flip foreclosures and use them with government houseing until the market comes back up and also do more contract sales (creative financing)
Buy pre-foreclosures and sell to the person losing the house when possible
Buy Flip and Donate (tax deductable and that is the same as cash)
Help me get a Surrogacy Program Funded, So that I can help Good Escorts do it legally here in the Las Vegas City Limits.... Imagine the Revenue on Legalized Sex Surrogates in Las Vegas
I want to get a Womens Empowerment Group Started (earthgoddesses.com)
Another of my Friends is trying to start a program for youth offenders (Our Children are the Future of the World)
A drug and alcohol program with a twist
A Sinners Church in a Casino ...... I have a great speaker and bands from all over town........ really want the Hard Rock for this
I have many wonderful Ideas for people to steal and use to their hearts content, I want people to know that this isn't only sin city, but our HOME a Home that we are proud of.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Earthgoddesses.com

Many Blessings and Good Morning

I was awakened at 1:30 am with sooooooo many revelations! Truths about what happened last year and who was behind it, truths about what I needed to do this year and my responsibility to my World

2 Halves of a Whole

Something is really nawing at me, I have always been fine being alone... felt that with my personality and strong beliefs that no one would put up with me very long........... But I have a huge twisting feeling that my soul mate is coming and soon. I mean it is like a huge knot in my stomach, and with my feelings and visions say that I will know as soon as I meet him (he will glow)

But I know that with my past I am not exactly a great lifemate choice so he will probably pass me right up.......... fingers crossed that he will see my glow.

Many Blessings

Future Earth Goddesses are coming to me in droves

We seem to be finding each other, it is amazing! It is like we have a built in radar to each other. I have met 7 so far this week including 2 men. We all have mainly the same traits with a few things thrown in extra for each of us.......

• We are all
• Visionaries
• Nurturing
• Kind
• Respectful
• Social Conscience
• Passionate about Our Beliefs
• Our Bodies are ALL Going thru Metamorphis

I am going to Start group meetings soon as I can get $20 together to start a meetup group........ Funny I look better than I have ever looked and my God is fighting me on making any money......... I love him to death and I accept that is his will..... but I have to pay my own way. That is just who I am. Many Blessings My Darling Earth Spirits and Realize that we are here to make a change......... please do at least one random act of kindness today!

Wow Major Wierd Night

Last night I had a major strange night, I think that it was a testing night. Clients have been few and far between, but out of the blue I got a call from a guy that was dying to see me.....UNTIL he asked if I would get high with him......... I knew soon as I told him that I didn't do any kind of drug that he would not ever call me. Then I went to Bed and that is when the Chaos started, My mind has soooo many receptors now that I catch every single emotion near me and I guess there was major turmoil here in the apartments last night...... I feel totally spent and emotionally drained this morning..... I have learned that alot of my delusions that I was experiencing starting in Set 2008 was the beginning of these visions. I have to be very careful where I go because I seem to pick up everyones emotions. Riding a bus a few days ago totally drained me.

I know that this is part of what I am suppose to learn to work with, but so far it has been a challenge.

The Day Rocks!!!!!!!

Many Blessings to alllllllllll.......... What a Blessed day that I enjoyed yesterday!! Wendy is getting me into the Prudential Real Estate School and I am pre-hired!!!!!! Joe and I had an Amazing evening, it is hard to love someone so hard and know that your not good for them.

I found out the other night that he is raising a 2yo son, and I think that he thought that the thought of a child turned me off, but it was more the burden of my carreers affecting a child that came into my heart. You See even if I quit TODAY (escorting and porn) I am still to well known to have a normal life........ So I have chosen to embrace my path. I do alot of good as an escort and adult personality..... I am there for the future Goddessess in my field to lean on, to learn from and to protect them. That is My calling .... A positive Role Model in any field is SO Important! If I am not here doing it how many of my girls would be used and abused by pimps? or Hungry? or no Shelter? Or have to give up their children becasue they don't have the self worth to understand that you can be an amazing MOM in any field as long as you can unconditionally love.

Many Blessings and Joys Today
Carla Holland-Strange

I need a Miracle

I have been studying "A Course in Miracles" for awhile now, and everything in it rings true.......Now I need a Miracle. My Ex Daughter In Law just called and she and my Grandson will be homeless in an hour... Well I am 1300 miles away and ust now getting back on my feet.......EVERY single day I start my Mornings by casting out Blessings to all that read my blogs......... Times are Hard and Money is tight so ALL that I am asking for is people to send me their BLESSINGS, not Prayers But Blessings...that is Major to me........ My God will do the Rest

I think he does not believe that people care anymore and I want to show him that they do, even if it is words of Blessings..... you see prayers are asking for something..... I am praying for Blessings. Blessings are a Beautiful Gift......... you tithe when you give a gift.

So Please email me your Blessings at earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com

Early Morning Realizations

Many Blessings to All, Every morning I wake up with new realizations and knowledge..... I love to share this even when I feel that someone doesn't quiet share what I am saying. Believe me this is NOT easy when.... It may sound like I am a nut AND I am trying to put a Mainstream Business together! I mean ya got to admit that I have Balls to endanger my career to put my true beliefs out there!

Just like OLD Larry out there, he figures that everyone will see me as not believeable and abit touched, but my readers are growing everyday!

I am a true Empath in that I feel your feelings so strong that it overshadows mine most of the time.. Plus I seem to bring them out of you stronger too. I think that is what happened between my family members, I felt their resentment so much that it was unbearable!

How do I coupe with this ability is what I am trying to figure out.... I mean it does not stay with me long term to damage me emotionally, but it is so powerful while I am near that person that it is physically painful.

I mean I was with a client yesterday that I felt his every pain, and his every addiction! Since I have been home I have realized so much that I don't even know how to put in terms and write down.... I know that I can help alot of these people. The funding has just got to come thru and I am nearly out of time.

This is something that just won't let go........ Dionne has been developing fast too. It is like a snowball going down a hill and gaining momentum.

Well it has already started

Barely been here a week and my friends are needing me in like 50 different directions, well one thing I learned after being in Texas and needing emotional support and understanding and not getting it...... I will make it happen!

Alot of this drains me, but I enjoy it and realize that I am doing good.... cept wanted to strangle Sharon last night when she called at 1am hehehehehe....... our Dear Friend Robin died March 31 and I am sure that she needed someone to talk to that understood...... but I just could not wake up. Now with Debs cancer I know that I am going to have to learn to be 24/7 for my friends. Selfishness and laziness with friendships are not the way to teach true unconditional love.

We went to see Saphire play last night, they are amazing! A truely female empowered group of ladies over 50 playing Blues. hehehehehehe I wanna be them when I grow up.

I have learned on this crazy journey that we don't have to be the same to love each other........ Just Agree to Disagree and go on with it. Hell Look at me and Dionne......... I am a wild child that loves to dress and act slutty and she is an amazing child of God...... BUT we never ran out of things to talk about! She is a smart intuitive woman that is grounded and centered in family and crafts and JC (Jesus) Me..... well hell I am just me, a free spirit that thrives on life and people.

I am going to drag Wade and his GirlFriend out tonight I think and I have an investor meeting at noon today (keep your fingers crossed) my deadline is Monday and this time I will realize that if it does not happen it wasn't meant to be. I won't see it as a failure, but a non-accomplishment. That was hard for me to realize that I don't always accomplish.

I struggled so many years growing up to try and be worthy of my Earth Parents love that it took alot of the joy out of my accomplishments, so now I am going to savor the ones that I earned and gracefully let go of the ones that I didn't.

Many Blessings!!!!!!!!
I limit myself to 1 hour aday online.....so please understand that I may not get your emails till the next day.

Special Blessings to Rocky, you stay in my thoughts and heart..... sometimes you can't understand a betrayal but you forgive it... never forget it

Ok We had the Positive... now for My Bitching

Larry at Live Oak is still ignoring me and not taking responsibility for his actions...... I know of alot of people that have been hurt there! he stirred up the bees one year and people got stung everywhere (NOT Good at a nudist Resort) then when he was building his new hot tub, people actully fell in...........but they loved the place so much that they didnt want to hurt it........ sad when the people love the place more than the owner does. He knows that I have nothing to lose by suing his ass cause I won't ever go back there and I pray that my friends realize that he does not care about them and Boycott the resort until he starts caring.

OOPs

By the way, when I get really passionate about anything, I get to going too fast and I misspell, does not make me stupid, makes me realize that life is too short for spell check

Good Morning All.... My Ideas on being an Earth Goddess

An Earth Goddess to me is an ever evolving spirit, and yes I believe that there are Earth Gods too.....Not to replace our Heavenly Father, we are after all his Children not his equals.

I have been going thru this majical transformation for awhile now and I am actually seeing that my sisters have been going thru it too and scared to talk to anyone about it since it may appear that you have gone insane!!!! I mean how do you explain that you wake up each morning with a new talent or ability that you didn't have when you went to bed?

I mean EVERY kind of Gift imaginable! Healings, Art, Music, Cooking and most of all Peace!

After being a big woman, my entire life I can now eat anything I want and keep to a healthy size..... Why? Because my knowledge is growing dailey of who I am and what I can offer! I offer my limited knowledge of what our gifts are and what important part we play in saving our world. I saw Kirstie Ally on one of the tabloids the other day and it broke my heart, you see I believe that she is an Earth Goddess that is fighting her transformation. You see I was given a short time to live 4 years ago and I weighed 350 pounds, but thru this transformation I know that I will be here many years and at a healthy size (not skinny) skinny is not what my body wants.

A true Earth Goddess learns the importance of the female orgasm and the role that it plays in our serenity and it is also a huge bonding factor with our mates (not that I have a mate)

A True Earth Goddess begins to Center Herself and realize the importance of great balance and understanding of WHO we Are.... and we never settle.

We are an amazing species, rare, our Fathers Treasure.... We are strong, kind, respectful, and sometimes brutally honest..... We excell in everything, we have a hard time with accepting failure. We have to stay humble and keep greed from taking over our soul.....although I think our basic core is so strong that it is hard to corrupt.
Many Blessings to ALL my Sister Goddesses

My New Photo Shoot

Here are a couple of the new pix that Carla took today, we had a long day.... one of my best friends found out that she has lung cancer today, so I Guess that it is good that I got home to be here with her. So nice that people actually look forward to spending time with me

Morning My Darlings

Gosh I love being home!!!!! My Vegas family has made me feel so welcome and loved, I do miss my Texas family but not the feeling of inadequecies that they gave me.

I went to listen to Blues last night with Wade, Darren, Roxy and Carla.... yes I said Darren and Roxy! and It was a very nice evening. I have learned thru this adventure this year that EVERYONE is Forgiveable except for Deb and Danyella (taking my pets to the shelter was something that I will never forgive that fake Brazilian and 2 faced backstabber) I do miss Rocky though, and I want to forgive him so much, but I can't.

Deb (the good one) and I are opening an entertainment agency, a web cam studio and a swingers club so it will be a busy time. I need to get at least 20K to get it off the ground, so I need to find an investor soon. I want a place that women feel comfortable in, a safe clean environment. Where No means No and your never disrespected or ordered to get in a car with a drunk driver.

Much Love and Many Blessings to Everyone..... Even you Larry

Vegas

Gosh.......finally headed home and it is like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I ran to Texas because I was scared of being alone in Vegas when all this drama began.... now I realize I have been more alone here than I ever would have there. Don't get me wrong people "tried' to be there for me here in Texas.......BUT they didn't want to be. and if you truely love someone it comes with no strings attached. I am going back to Vegas with 5 bucks to my name, but I KNOW I will be ok..... I know that God loves us wild, crazy sinners with all his heart..... because I don't hide behind a church and religion to know that I am a good person.

I love you Dionne for being there for me, you gave and never asked for anything in return.... We agreed to disagree about everything, but you showed me that mutual respect does exsist here.

I love you Wade, because you have always been my burly grumpy shoulder to lean on... That is the reason that I am not afraid to go home!

I love you Chanel for keeping clothes on my back! Wish we wore the same size shoe!!!!

I love you Deb, for the shelter that you have offered me, even without electric i know that I will feel welcomed and loved.......We WILL get that electric back on.

I love you Robert for making sure that when I asked for help you came thru and did not hold it against me or use it on me.

I love you Jeremy, Brandon, and Amanda...... though your hands are tied by bonds that you have no control over...... I know that you love me!

I love you Vegas for being a place that freaks, misfits and immorals can fit in and find true friends that love them.

I know in my heart that I will never willingly return to Texas, I won't come back for any reasons, no illnesses, deaths, marriages, births will draw me back here. Phones are perfect ways to stay in contact

Resort Pictures

be warned that in my investigations, that I have found event photos on paysites! Must remember to call Lee and Sandy tonight!

Everyone says that I should do all this under another name to stay safe from the people that I expose.......BUT I believe that you should never hide behind fake names to speak the truth!

Still not reading "pops" emails because I am sure that it is still veiled scare tatics, if I am not affraid of real time threats why be afraid of someone that hides behind fake email addresses.

There are GREAT Nudist and Swingers resorts out there and those are the ones that suffer from these HALL OF SHAME owners.

Busy

We have had a busy weekend, I got a sponsor for the Eddie Griffin show at Planet Hollywood for T. Roscoe (Hi T!!!!!!) Then found out that my ex-roommate Rick of Spindoll.com had gone to Prison for selling silencers to AFT, On the good side though, that means that the crap in Vegas is settled and my stuff is safe.

I been being my usual curious self and investigating an old case that a man was wrongfully accused and went to prison for. Apparently someone set him up out of business jealousy, and anyone that knows me knows that I don't back down on a story! Injustice is ALWAYS going to catch my eye.... i have that weird second sight about things..... I will give you all alittle insight. Someone got framed for child porn to get his place shut down! Before I leave for Vegas, I am going back out there to do some more investigating and pull guest list!

Well anyway Jose gets out of the hospital tomorrow and I am going to set him down and explain some home truths to him. He is such a nice guy, and I feel that he got handed a raw deal.

The new talk show will air in Sept sometime and I am soooooo excited!!!!!!

Dancing

I miss dancing soooooooo much, soon as I get back to Vegas i want to go Salsa Dancing, There is so much to do in Vegas... I never get bored

Family Get Together

we are having a family get together tomorrow at Dionnes, it has been wonderful staying with her.... we are so much alike but sooooo different at the same time. Both spiritual and loving, but me wild as hell........hehehehe

Anyway, my son and his ex are meeting here tomorrow and i get to see my youngest granddaughter... Yea!!!!!

I pray that this is the last thing on my agenda so I can get back to Vegas! I want to see my families back together and whole ( my kids and grandkids)

I will not ever give up the battles that I have realized affect everyone, and pray that people start fighting back when they are done wrong. Pick your battles, but realize that the Internet is a HUGE weapon! it only takes a couple of complaints on the internet to bring a dishonest business down!

Stalking

man this guy from Live oak resort won't stop writng me, but he pretends to be one of the guest there......... Well us folks that realize there are IP addresses know who is who. It is a true shame, I have always loved LOR so much and now it is like so yucky to me........ It was an openminded wonderful playground at one time, but now it is in total emotional neglect.

Healings and Great Gifts!!!!!!!!!

I have been blessed to see miracles in the last few weeks along with all the hardships, miracles from a girl in jail that needed to know that she deserved a second chance, to be the mother and woman she wanted to be..... miracles in seeing a scared young woman reach out to a stranger to not be alone while she was sick in the hospital...miracles in my beautiful family healing ... and hopefully soon the Unity of a complete family with my kiddos, their mates and all the grandkids loveingly becoming one family..... I am blessed in that all my children are strong individuals... and they are strong in their family convictions and beliefs.
Many Blessings


Thanks for all the Text Lisa....... reaching out is a sign of strength that only a REAL Earth Goddess can do

My Number

My number is 817-757-2152 if you want to call with any juicey details, I am going to start exposing businesses that fuck the little guy! Live Oak Resort, Look at your Credit Card bills and see how many bags of Ice that you have been charged for this Year!

The residents of LOR is what keeps it going! Those are the backbone of the place, and the Heart!

Video of Live Oak Resort Event

One of the Ladies that was at Live Oak Resort is sending me a Video from her cell Phone.... I am going to add it here and YouTube

My Weekend at Live Oak Resort In Texas

As Most of you know I am a NUDIST and Lifestylist (not a swinger) Live Oak Resort has always been my FAVORITE Place in the world! The people are great, the place is gorgeous and it was going to be HedoFest............By the end of the Day, I was told to leave with a drunk, mad driver, and then hit by the very same driver!

LMAO........ ya got you realize how this all happened and why I am so very mad! I have been going there for over 6 years and never had one day of bad things happen. This time I go there with a first date (someone that had NEVER gone to a place like that) He had also just got back from IRAQ, well I guess he had drank too much, and caused a few of the ladies to feel uncomfortable, (NO SECURITY) and instead of someone telling him nicely to sober up and leave. The Owner demanded we leave right then or he was calling the police! How do you tell a woman to get in a car with a drunk driver and drive 136 miles home? at 9pm? The guy was thn punched in the mouth by the owner with this knife and it busted his mouth..... he jumped in his car and peeled out hitting me with his car and knocking me into another one! He then ran off the road and thru a bridge. He is in the hospital still today..... so I take it privately to the group and get verbally attacked because I felt that none of this is right!

They all whine and moan about, the security, the over chemicals in the pool and hot tub, and the padding the credit card bills, but they don't have the balls to do anything about it! Well I have the freedom of speech and I have been to many resorts that are excellent and I expect that from any and all of them if they want my money and for me to reccommend them to people I know!

I also believe that a GOOD Nudist Resort should have the owners see naked every once in awhile and maybe be nice to people every once in awhile

I rate this experience at Live Oak Resort in Texas Poor

Email me at earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com if you want me to add the emails that I got

I had great news yesterday

I found a grant yesterday, maybe My Sensual Healing and Wellness Institute will Open soon!!! Yeah!!!!! This has been a powerful journey for me and I pray that I will end up with my dreams finally realized.
couples healing
sexual surrogacy program
weight counseling
wellness counseling
life coaching
gourmet HOME Cooked Meals
REAL Women Counseling............ We are ALL Goddesses
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My Charities of choice are going to be the Desiree Alliance and Habitat for Humanity

Pre Paid Legal

I know I said that I was done blogging but I do have one more issue that needs to be dealt with and that Is Pre Paid Legal What a Fucking Joke

I am PrePaid for a YEAR and this company has not helped me one time! I have 6 files and not got help once!

Once was the house On Delaware Ln when I found out that the owners were not making the payments and I was

Once about the Animal Cruelty Charges that Las Vegas Put on me because I didn't have the water bowls filled by 8am and licence.......... how is that animal cruelty? I asked the PrePaid Legal bunch to change the court dates but they didn't! That is part of my April 30th arrest, Plus lost all my pets and home

Then in march I called to leave the conflicker info with my attorney and he did not keep my confidence....... EVEN if I was nutty I deserve proper representaion.

I called to sue the Las Vegas Police department and Jail and launch an internal affairs investigation and Again Pre Paid Legal laughed at me and did nothing,

I also asked that they stop my landlord from doing away with all of my possessions and they did nothing again

I called the one in Texas to find out about setting up a business and they told me how to find someone on the internet!

Now I get hit by a car and they put me on hold and don't come back

What did I pay for? They have many lawsuits because of this and they need to have a different one in EVERY State. but people feel powerless........ NOT me! I will blog your ass into the ground if I get nothing else....... I will get MY voice heard

It is Hell being a Burden on People

Since I became homeless I have prided myself on trying to help EVERY where I stayed... I cook, clean, watch kids, keep quiet and docile............... But Still a burden. NO one cared that I got hit by a cra this weekend and bruised all over... they care that I left an ice chest (cooler) in the car that went to the shop.

You know I am coming to expect this and accept it, but it hurts. people take petty things and make huge things out of it just to have an excuse to throw you away, or even forget the guilts that they already have towards you.

In December 2008 I was in the Hospital in ICU with a 10% chance to live..... how many of my family flew out to make sure that I was getting proper care?

In 2006 I had pancreatitis and was in ICU in Dallas......... 60 miles from my family.... how many came? You guessed it..... ZIP, Zero, No ONE

2006 11 breast surgeries because of a botched surgery in Costa Rica at Scott and White in Temple Texas 22 miles from family......... and the grand total this time......2 my son and my kennel worker!

I have been emotionally on my own my entire life, so why is it bothering me so much right now? Because this is the FIRST time that I have felt helpless in my own skin. I walk on eggshells to not piss anyone off and to keep a roof over my head, I have become a robot to please... Well Fuck that.

You know I can go to a church and beg for Charity, but I won't use a church to keep a roof over my head by pretending that I believe all of their faith, I have the mental capablities to have done illegal things to stay afloat, but I didn't. We choose our path and I guess that I chose to be humiliated, shunned and pushed rather than use charity wrongly or steal.

I did ask friends for help, but their ideas of help was kind words....... See these are the friends that would buy me shit that I would NEVER wear, bring me bottles of wine, pay for my CL post but to help me get back on my feet that was just uncalled of and not happening.

I know I sound bitter today and maybe it is MY time to grieve...... you see since this all started all I have been doing is to try a fix everybody......... IT IS NOT MY JOB TO HEAL THE WORLD! I needed this weekend to get away, let my hair down and be drama free and Maybe to get LAID (where I would enjoy it that is) None of this happened.....

Cold Hard Reality Set in.. there is no good left in the world, there are no miracles left and I am tired of the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I am ready to start working a friggin street corner and say Fuck Everyone........ now isnt that the proper responce for someone that has been crushed over and over for the last few months? Sorry to disappoint, I still love all of you and cast MANY Blessings yours way
Carla Holland-Strange

Foreclosures

Now I have told alot of you about my Charity Ideas about Foreclosures, wish I knew if anyone actually was following thru with them, email me and at least tell me ok? earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com

Developers grab some of these Apartment complexes and turn them into government houseing

Now Acceptable Discussions

I am bruised all over from getting hit with the car, walked in my my daughter in law is mad at my son because I lost their cooler in the car that Jose was driving, He drove it off a bridge by the way. So more turmoil, it is my favorite day of the Week ... I love Mondays!!!! see I am a workaholic and Mondays were always my FAVORITE day (busiest day of the Week)

One of my NEW Super Powers is that I notice great business deals (but I think I always did that) I am looking and speculating all the time about the worth and what can be done with alot of these properties. I need to start a development company to help some of these places take off! I found 2 great deals this weekend and God knows I have no funds.

There is One that will make someone Millions within a VERY Short time Frame,,, and I have a refurb crew that can make it happen fast! Not to mention my network and marketing abilities! So for about a million dollar investment, it will pay itself off and be in the profit margin within a year!

Second is a little Mom and Pop type operation, but it will take someone that will listen to me to make it work! i have a couple in mind, but how do you tell someone that you have a vision of success just for those 2 people?

I don't know why I can barely talk to someone and understand exactly what their calling is all about, I don't know why I feel their pains and hopes so strong, but I do.

I think I am going to put this to the Test Today and Call Paloma in Rosebud and Tell her about the little Mom and Pop business that is perfect for them. She has always been so kind and she told me her dream of this very thing 2 months ago.