Rick Got Out

and did not even let me know......hehehehehe I guess he really does have that selfish streak from his genes. Oh well i am heading back to Vegas, I only left there to give him a chance.

I am speaking at 2 events in Vegas next month so I might as well just stay thru the Summer.

Many Blessings

Who I have Become

I am a 49 yo Ordained Minister that has been in all aspects of the adult business, from stripper, escort, porn actress, porn producer. I love my God and rejoice in him everyday. I also know that God loves me and led me thru the adult businesses to make a difference NOW.

Don't get me wrong just because I fell in love with God and spirituality does not mean that I am ashamed of my past. In fact I believe that it was a wonderful profession with lots of wonderful people! I love my porn friends, my escort friends and my producer friends. Most are just doing a job and should not be judged. Remember the Golden Rule People.

Thru the year of transition to this awakening, I could not figure out if I was suppose to leave my adult world behind to follow Gods teachings or was I suppose to stay the Carla that he sought out..........

I am Carla, I love and accept ALL People, All faiths, All races, All Sexualities and ALL Life Choices!

Jesus best friend was a hooker .........remember?

Many Blessings
Rev. Carla Holland-Strange

I must be doing something right watch how many people are following me on here

Todays Update

Well I went to see Rick yesterday, he looked excellent and says that when he gets out he will keep not smoking so that is a biggie for me. I went there to get his friend in Oregons info so that I could beg him for help, since Ricks family does not want to help and he came up with the same old tired "tough love" saying. LOL you have to love someone to practice tough love. and how can you even get close to knowing what that person needs when you haven't bothered to know him in years.... none of these people know Rick.......... heck I don't know him. Longest I saw him sober was 3 weeks till he got shot down by that evil email from his family. I am going to post that on here as soon as he gets out of jail, so you all can see the venom that was spewed. Enough Venom to know him right back to the ground.

As far as my Ministry is going, I have been called to do some talks..... one is even in Las Veegas! I just hate leaving when Rick is so close to getting out on PR bond.... but if it benefits my ministry I may have to. My minister here said that Rick can stay with him and his family. But we will see where everything is going by then. I may bring him with me, but I hate for him to go back to Vegas and Cali untill he is completely healed and over his anger and resentment.

Anger, Hate, Guilt and Fears are your stumbling blocks on this earth. Each of these you have to address to move to the next level of balance. Sure I still get angry, but I blow it up and vent it out. I am like a dog with a bone when I know in my heart that it is a wrong done. As you can tell about Live Oak Resort, Sue and Ricks family.......
Many Blessings

WE Need Donations

As most of you know I have gone thru major changes in the last few years since you adopted your wonderful pets from me. And I know for a fact that the one major gift that I have is amazing dogs. I have left my old life in Vegas behind and started a Non-Profit called Morning Star, we hope to open the middle of June if all goes well with the grants that we applied for.

Morning Star is a spiritual retreat for recovery and life changes...... but I am also incorporating my beautiful gifts ..... my dogs. I am breeding and training seeing eyes dogs, specializing in Macular Degeneration, and Therapy dogs for the elderly.......... I mean what a wonderful combination spiritually healing and having the wonderful gift of a dog while you do it.

After my dogs are trained, they will be donated to the Texas School For the Blind, and separate handlers in different areas of the country. When God bulldozed me he did it hard if you can't tell. I need help getting donations and I know for a fact that each of you are blessed in that area. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. My number is 702-496-3627, and if you don't want to or can't help ...... please know that the prayers are just as important to me.

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Rev.Carla Holland-Strange
Earthgoddesscarla.blogspot.com
Church of the Fallen Angels
paypal donations to earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com

Donations

we are needing donations to get this ministry and retreat on its feet people!!!!! I have my non-profit now so everything is totally tax deductable!!!!!! soooo give what ya can! Our main retreats will be
Desiree Alliance
Victims of Domestic Violence
Gay and Lesbian
Homeless Job Fairs
Couple 2gether
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I feel that these retreats will be amazing fellowshipping and accepting. But I need your help!!!!!! Since Rick is still on vacation. Plus I need our fans to call Parker County DA and ask why a man is sitting in jail for a crime that someone else confessed to. Richard John Digiacomo .... it is hard doing all of this alone.

Money Was NOT the Issue Lisa

the evil email that sent Rick over the edge is the issue Lisa, I still do not believe that your mother wrote that letter to him. It was pure evil and screamed an angry sibling rather than a mother that wants the BEST for her son. Do you not realize yet that Rick loves you? He got giddy one day because he talked to you on the phone and you did not yell at him. He is a GOOD man with behavioral problems that began during his childhood...... hmmmmmmmmm. All we want is him home and working with the ministry, all he wants is a relationship with his family, your mother can handle her own with her son.......... but you seem to always feel the need to step between. Your a mother right? Would you want someone to step between you and your child? even if it their sibling? I think not. She said that you had taken her control away and in that you also put her as a person that is not able to think for themselves. I do believe you love her with all of your heart, but deny your brother the same right is totally wrong. don't you believe that if your Mom was truely sick and close to death that she would need the closure with all of her children in the end times? My thick head never changes its mind, I will fight for Rick to the end....... he is sitting in jail for something he is not guilty of and you are leaving him there. All that breeds is contempt and contempt will always bear a dark heart.

rick is doing good by the way, as if you cared. gosh I hope your children never bear hate to each other. it is a horrid thing. I am going to post this to my blog so that things do not get turned around in the wording.

Many Blessings

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Rev.Carla Holland-Strange
Earthgoddesscarla.blogspot.com
Church of the Fallen Angels

Love and Accetance

Now here is my dillema, I am in small town hometown of mine.... but my heart is not going to bend. As you know I am starting the retreat soon and I live by the love and acceptance rule I love everyone! Well as most of you know I have worked hard to cross many barriers in the last few years and the main one has been sexuality. I am not gay, but most of my friends are either gay, ts, tv, or any other type that does not fall into the "norm"...... small town hometown is closed to opening up and trusting an outsider and that includes the few gay and ts that I have met here...... isnt that a trip that the people I show the most love to rejects me? hehehehehehehe oh well............ God said no one had to accept my love, just that I had to give it.

Many Blessings
Rev. Carla Holland-Strange

Roller Coaster Ride

Man it has been an adventure in the last year and a half..... a guy from Word Press has been watching my blog and is interested in my writing a book on this crazy year of transition. I must admit my whole life has been a wild journey that was never boring nor even simple.........but very rewarding.

You must realize where I have been in my life and follow very carefully
Abandoned daughter of non-caring father---------->Class geek nerd--------->married to early to older man that used me for punching bag--------->stripper-------> drug dealer------- Saved/Baptised----> Mormon Stake Missionary-----> Hooker----->married dog breeder------>dying hooker------porn star-----porn producer----> ordained spiritual minister

Now can you beat that with a stick????? hehehehehehehehe Hell I would read it

and Oh My Heck wait till you hear about the people I have met!

Update on Rick, Retreat and Me

Well things have been great and very sad lately, so I am still counting my Blessings that God is still doing the steering in my life, even though I do not understand most of the time.

I went to see rick the other day and he looks great...... he is still confused of why he is in jail and all the others aren't when for the First time in his life he did not commit a crime. I begged his family to help me, but as usual his sister Lisa stays in control of his mom. Still can't understand the selfishness that sprouts out of them. but it gives me a huge idea of why Rick is so screwed up. It is so much easier for a family to work things out rather than be so controling. He thinks that is all about inheritence, hell if he wanted to be evil after all of this he could tie things up for years in the courts. I would not blame him abit if he did. because even if a child is disinherited he can contest for years and tie the rest of the family up too.

I filed my non-profit today and I got a hard money guy that is getting 50% of what I need to open......... so that still leaves me with about 400K to get in donations and grants. God put this amazing place right in front of my eyes and I know that it is the home that Rick and I will grow old in. He is eligible for a PR bond in about a month, so I guess we are going to ride this out together. He knows that I am the only person that never gives up on him.........

I post this to my facebook page each time I blog so thanks to the 6000 regular readers and my 5 subscribers. I am so sorry that I don't get to post very often, but I post when I need too.

Carla Holland-Strange
702-496-3627

A Mothers Love

I want to send out a special note to my Mom and My Sister Kaye...... I love you both so very much. I know this has been a weird and crummy time this year and I feel that we weathered the storm pretty well as a family. I am sorry for the bad times, thankful for the good times and I believe it is the strength of our family and the mutual love that got mom thru her near death.

It breaks my heart when I see families that pull apart rather than bond together when times are tough.
Much Love and Many Blessings

Donations for the New Ministry

Hello all, My name is Carla Holland-Strange..... I am a newly ordained Minister (August 2009) and I am trying to start a Non-Denominational Spiritual Retreat here in Mineral Wells....... We are also having prayer and assembly meetings. This is meetings for the bad boy types that don't feel that they fit into the "normal" Church type faith. I really don't care if you drink, smoke, or whatever as long as you love God and need a place to share that LOVE. You see I am an EX druggie, Pornstar and this year has brought me to a deep knowledge of Gods Love, not his judgement. All faiths will be welcome to use our retreat (pre-booking required) We are needing donations to get this up and going! Garage Sale Items, furnishings, and of course money!

Don't let your sins and guilts keep you out of Assembly....... feel free to call me 702-496-3627

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Rev.Carla Holland-Strange
Earthgoddesscarla.blogspot.com
Church of the Fallen Angels
702-496-3627

Begging not Asking

Dear Friends


I am BEGGING not asking..... for a favor. I have asked many times since I became homeless and not gotten a responce from most people that claim to care soooooo much about me. Words are cheap! Actions Speak ............. I am BEGGING for not only myself but others like me. People that got in a bad spot, lost everything and still survived. Now I have over 6000 people on my mailing list and I am ready to put this to the test. I found a property that I can buy.... it is 5 acres, within walking distance to many jobs........... it is also a place that after I get in will pay for itself (only $379,000)

I want to make a place for homeless to get a fresh start........ jobs are plentiful here. I don't really care if all of you know that I have been down and out this year........ your misconceptions are that I am that Vegas HotShot with all the great friends and huge connections. Well those great Vegas friends drove by me as I stood on the corner of Sahara and Jones homeless and hungry. The real Carla Michele Holland-Strange is a country girl with a country girl heart. I love the old fashioned things like true friendships, passionate love, home cooking, and charity that comes from the heart......... and above all eles the Golden Rule.

Thru the years I opened my home and heart to many of you, never asking anything in return.................. now I am asking that you give a gift of love back............. my paypal address is earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com ...... after this I will see who is a true friend.

Much Love and Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
702-496-3627