Well this was a wierd day and it totally knocked me out..... I have been alittle upset with Debbie and I decided not to go over to her house today for the photo shoot, but got one of my crazy signs that a I needed to use my gift with a friend with lung cancer. Now you got to understand that I don't understand this gift at all.... when I started with Patty, she seemed to get alot worse with her back. So of course it scares me when the friend has fucking lung cancer (and there is tension between us) so how is that going to work?
Well I got there and you could feel the tension down to my spine.... in fact it felt like I walked into a toxic dump site.... then add on that there were 5 god/goddess energies there. Now a God/Goddess energy sounds heavenly but it isn't (think that is why I was miserable at my Moms) It is hardcore draining power struggles. Well I had barely been there one hour and Deb started throwing up and I became physically depleted.... you see it is as painful for the healer as it is for the ill (and top it that it is an ill Goddess ... Oh My) i haven't been drinking any wine for awhile, but had to numb some of the toxcins running thru me.
Except for Patty, who asked me to rub her back (cause she felt that I could heal) No one has ever known that I was doing a heling when I hugged them goodbye and asked God to heal........ so tomorrow is a huge knowledge for me....... I know that Patty is healing (degeneration of the spine) but am I strong enough for Lung Cancer?
Well I guess only time will tell..... soon as I got home It knocked me out and I woke up to blog all of this 6 hours later.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Sunday, August 30, 2009
My Witnessing
Ok the title is alittle misleading, I am not going to sit here and bash my past........ to be honest it got me here to who I am now. Yes I have been on drugs (meth and crack) used to drink like a fish and I still can at times, posed nude, stripped, did adult films, escorted......... Never stole, hurt people, always kind and giving.
I don't just give money to charities I give me (not being holier than thou) I think the best gifts that we can give is ourselves, our energies, our healings..... I have found that is my best ability is healing. It drains me dry, but I seem to be able to take the pain away. I have had 3 healings so far and they have worked so well that it shocked me to my inner core. Who knew.hehehhehehehe.
I am excited in this gift, but never want it to go to an ego thing or then it won't work. I have to stay humble even when I am getting so excited about the things that I have been able to do lately!
Many Blessings and Peace Be with YOU
I don't just give money to charities I give me (not being holier than thou) I think the best gifts that we can give is ourselves, our energies, our healings..... I have found that is my best ability is healing. It drains me dry, but I seem to be able to take the pain away. I have had 3 healings so far and they have worked so well that it shocked me to my inner core. Who knew.hehehhehehehe.
I am excited in this gift, but never want it to go to an ego thing or then it won't work. I have to stay humble even when I am getting so excited about the things that I have been able to do lately!
Many Blessings and Peace Be with YOU
Christian Concert OH MY
Well I had my forst experience with a Christian Rock concert and I wanted to run as fast as I could to get out of there. What is sad is that I know that the artist that was performing was doing it for the right reasons, he had a true wake up call about his calling to the Awakening. BUT it isn't well defined yet I think.
Thruout the concert there was moshing and alot of negative energy, that brewed an underlying violence, 3 of the bands screamed their words and no one understood the actual message. After the concert I saw at least 4 acts of malice, kids smoking pot and cigarettes, the wounds of the ones in the mosh pit, and a little girl that is about 13 that had to explain to her mother why she got a busted lip at a Christian Concert. These kids were there to see a Rock Show not find the love of God.
Don't get me wrong, I thank God for amazing souls like this that want to give back to the youth and try to right wrongs that they feel they have done in their past...... but the positive teaches so much more than the negative. I took some video of the crowd at the concert and talked to some kids after ..... will load it today after I figure all of this out.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Thruout the concert there was moshing and alot of negative energy, that brewed an underlying violence, 3 of the bands screamed their words and no one understood the actual message. After the concert I saw at least 4 acts of malice, kids smoking pot and cigarettes, the wounds of the ones in the mosh pit, and a little girl that is about 13 that had to explain to her mother why she got a busted lip at a Christian Concert. These kids were there to see a Rock Show not find the love of God.
Don't get me wrong, I thank God for amazing souls like this that want to give back to the youth and try to right wrongs that they feel they have done in their past...... but the positive teaches so much more than the negative. I took some video of the crowd at the concert and talked to some kids after ..... will load it today after I figure all of this out.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Letter to my Investors
Hello My Dear Friends
This is to let you know that I am back in Vegas, and I wanted to thank you all for being so patient with me while I struggled to find Investors for my resorts, I slugged thru and God did not seem to think that is what I was suppose to do and I did not get funding, but that is ok.......... We tried. When one door closes another opened and this opened in a big way for me.
First I was honored to meet each of you wonderful people
Second I came to learn who I am in the business world.... A good person that will never stoop to underhanded deals to make a buck
Third I realized that more than anything else I want to give back to Las Vegas and Pay it Forward as you might say.... Since so many wanted my ideas here in Vegas (alot of them stolen) Here are a few for Free
Lets buy and flip foreclosures and use them with government houseing until the market comes back up and also do more contract sales (creative financing)
Buy pre-foreclosures and sell to the person losing the house when possible
Buy Flip and Donate (tax deductable and that is the same as cash)
Help me get a Surrogacy Program Funded, So that I can help Good Escorts do it legally here in the Las Vegas City Limits.... Imagine the Revenue on Legalized Sex Surrogates in Las Vegas
I want to get a Womens Empowerment Group Started (earthgoddesses.com)
Another of my Friends is trying to start a program for youth offenders (Our Children are the Future of the World)
A drug and alcohol program with a twist
A Sinners Church in a Casino ...... I have a great speaker and bands from all over town........ really want the Hard Rock for this
I have many wonderful Ideas for people to steal and use to their hearts content, I want people to know that this isn't only sin city, but our HOME a Home that we are proud of.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Earthgoddesses.com
This is to let you know that I am back in Vegas, and I wanted to thank you all for being so patient with me while I struggled to find Investors for my resorts, I slugged thru and God did not seem to think that is what I was suppose to do and I did not get funding, but that is ok.......... We tried. When one door closes another opened and this opened in a big way for me.
First I was honored to meet each of you wonderful people
Second I came to learn who I am in the business world.... A good person that will never stoop to underhanded deals to make a buck
Third I realized that more than anything else I want to give back to Las Vegas and Pay it Forward as you might say.... Since so many wanted my ideas here in Vegas (alot of them stolen) Here are a few for Free
Lets buy and flip foreclosures and use them with government houseing until the market comes back up and also do more contract sales (creative financing)
Buy pre-foreclosures and sell to the person losing the house when possible
Buy Flip and Donate (tax deductable and that is the same as cash)
Help me get a Surrogacy Program Funded, So that I can help Good Escorts do it legally here in the Las Vegas City Limits.... Imagine the Revenue on Legalized Sex Surrogates in Las Vegas
I want to get a Womens Empowerment Group Started (earthgoddesses.com)
Another of my Friends is trying to start a program for youth offenders (Our Children are the Future of the World)
A drug and alcohol program with a twist
A Sinners Church in a Casino ...... I have a great speaker and bands from all over town........ really want the Hard Rock for this
I have many wonderful Ideas for people to steal and use to their hearts content, I want people to know that this isn't only sin city, but our HOME a Home that we are proud of.
Many Blessings
Carla Holland-Strange
Earthgoddesses.com
Many Blessings and Good Morning
I was awakened at 1:30 am with sooooooo many revelations! Truths about what happened last year and who was behind it, truths about what I needed to do this year and my responsibility to my World
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
2 Halves of a Whole
Something is really nawing at me, I have always been fine being alone... felt that with my personality and strong beliefs that no one would put up with me very long........... But I have a huge twisting feeling that my soul mate is coming and soon. I mean it is like a huge knot in my stomach, and with my feelings and visions say that I will know as soon as I meet him (he will glow)
But I know that with my past I am not exactly a great lifemate choice so he will probably pass me right up.......... fingers crossed that he will see my glow.
Many Blessings
But I know that with my past I am not exactly a great lifemate choice so he will probably pass me right up.......... fingers crossed that he will see my glow.
Many Blessings
Future Earth Goddesses are coming to me in droves
We seem to be finding each other, it is amazing! It is like we have a built in radar to each other. I have met 7 so far this week including 2 men. We all have mainly the same traits with a few things thrown in extra for each of us.......
- We are all
- Visionaries
- Nurturing
- Kind
- Respectful
- Social Conscience
- Passionate about Our Beliefs
- Our Bodies are ALL Going thru Metamorphis
I am going to Start group meetings soon as I can get $20 together to start a meetup group........ Funny I look better than I have ever looked and my God is fighting me on making any money......... I love him to death and I accept that is his will..... but I have to pay my own way. That is just who I am. Many Blessings My Darling Earth Spirits and Realize that we are here to make a change......... please do at least one random act of kindness today!
Wow Major Wierd Night
Last night I had a major strange night, I think that it was a testing night. Clients have been few and far between, but out of the blue I got a call from a guy that was dying to see me.....UNTIL he asked if I would get high with him......... I knew soon as I told him that I didn't do any kind of drug that he would not ever call me. Then I went to Bed and that is when the Chaos started, My mind has soooo many receptors now that I catch every single emotion near me and I guess there was major turmoil here in the apartments last night...... I feel totally spent and emotionally drained this morning..... I have learned that alot of my delusions that I was experiencing starting in Set 2008 was the beginning of these visions. I have to be very careful where I go because I seem to pick up everyones emotions. Riding a bus a few days ago totally drained me.
I know that this is part of what I am suppose to learn to work with, but so far it has been a challenge.
I know that this is part of what I am suppose to learn to work with, but so far it has been a challenge.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
The Day Rocks!!!!!!!
Many Blessings to alllllllllll.......... What a Blessed day that I enjoyed yesterday!! Wendy is getting me into the Prudential Real Estate School and I am pre-hired!!!!!! Joe and I had an Amazing evening, it is hard to love someone so hard and know that your not good for them.
I found out the other night that he is raising a 2yo son, and I think that he thought that the thought of a child turned me off, but it was more the burden of my carreers affecting a child that came into my heart. You See even if I quit TODAY (escorting and porn) I am still to well known to have a normal life........ So I have chosen to embrace my path. I do alot of good as an escort and adult personality..... I am there for the future Goddessess in my field to lean on, to learn from and to protect them. That is My calling .... A positive Role Model in any field is SO Important! If I am not here doing it how many of my girls would be used and abused by pimps? or Hungry? or no Shelter? Or have to give up their children becasue they don't have the self worth to understand that you can be an amazing MOM in any field as long as you can unconditionally love.
Many Blessings and Joys Today
Carla Holland-Strange
I found out the other night that he is raising a 2yo son, and I think that he thought that the thought of a child turned me off, but it was more the burden of my carreers affecting a child that came into my heart. You See even if I quit TODAY (escorting and porn) I am still to well known to have a normal life........ So I have chosen to embrace my path. I do alot of good as an escort and adult personality..... I am there for the future Goddessess in my field to lean on, to learn from and to protect them. That is My calling .... A positive Role Model in any field is SO Important! If I am not here doing it how many of my girls would be used and abused by pimps? or Hungry? or no Shelter? Or have to give up their children becasue they don't have the self worth to understand that you can be an amazing MOM in any field as long as you can unconditionally love.
Many Blessings and Joys Today
Carla Holland-Strange
Monday, August 24, 2009
I need a Miracle
I have been studying "A Course in Miracles" for awhile now, and everything in it rings true.......Now I need a Miracle. My Ex Daughter In Law just called and she and my Grandson will be homeless in an hour... Well I am 1300 miles away and ust now getting back on my feet.......EVERY single day I start my Mornings by casting out Blessings to all that read my blogs......... Times are Hard and Money is tight so ALL that I am asking for is people to send me their BLESSINGS, not Prayers But Blessings...that is Major to me........ My God will do the Rest
I think he does not believe that people care anymore and I want to show him that they do, even if it is words of Blessings..... you see prayers are asking for something..... I am praying for Blessings. Blessings are a Beautiful Gift......... you tithe when you give a gift.
So Please email me your Blessings at earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com
I think he does not believe that people care anymore and I want to show him that they do, even if it is words of Blessings..... you see prayers are asking for something..... I am praying for Blessings. Blessings are a Beautiful Gift......... you tithe when you give a gift.
So Please email me your Blessings at earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Early Morning Realizations
Many Blessings to All, Every morning I wake up with new realizations and knowledge..... I love to share this even when I feel that someone doesn't quiet share what I am saying. Believe me this is NOT easy when.... It may sound like I am a nut AND I am trying to put a Mainstream Business together! I mean ya got to admit that I have Balls to endanger my career to put my true beliefs out there!
Just like OLD Larry out there, he figures that everyone will see me as not believeable and abit touched, but my readers are growing everyday!
I am a true Empath in that I feel your feelings so strong that it overshadows mine most of the time.. Plus I seem to bring them out of you stronger too. I think that is what happened between my family members, I felt their resentment so much that it was unbearable!
How do I coupe with this ability is what I am trying to figure out.... I mean it does not stay with me long term to damage me emotionally, but it is so powerful while I am near that person that it is physically painful.
I mean I was with a client yesterday that I felt his every pain, and his every addiction! Since I have been home I have realized so much that I don't even know how to put in terms and write down.... I know that I can help alot of these people. The funding has just got to come thru and I am nearly out of time.
This is something that just won't let go........ Dionne has been developing fast too. It is like a snowball going down a hill and gaining momentum.
Just like OLD Larry out there, he figures that everyone will see me as not believeable and abit touched, but my readers are growing everyday!
I am a true Empath in that I feel your feelings so strong that it overshadows mine most of the time.. Plus I seem to bring them out of you stronger too. I think that is what happened between my family members, I felt their resentment so much that it was unbearable!
How do I coupe with this ability is what I am trying to figure out.... I mean it does not stay with me long term to damage me emotionally, but it is so powerful while I am near that person that it is physically painful.
I mean I was with a client yesterday that I felt his every pain, and his every addiction! Since I have been home I have realized so much that I don't even know how to put in terms and write down.... I know that I can help alot of these people. The funding has just got to come thru and I am nearly out of time.
This is something that just won't let go........ Dionne has been developing fast too. It is like a snowball going down a hill and gaining momentum.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Well it has already started
Barely been here a week and my friends are needing me in like 50 different directions, well one thing I learned after being in Texas and needing emotional support and understanding and not getting it...... I will make it happen!
Alot of this drains me, but I enjoy it and realize that I am doing good.... cept wanted to strangle Sharon last night when she called at 1am hehehehehe....... our Dear Friend Robin died March 31 and I am sure that she needed someone to talk to that understood...... but I just could not wake up. Now with Debs cancer I know that I am going to have to learn to be 24/7 for my friends. Selfishness and laziness with friendships are not the way to teach true unconditional love.
We went to see Saphire play last night, they are amazing! A truely female empowered group of ladies over 50 playing Blues. hehehehehehe I wanna be them when I grow up.
I have learned on this crazy journey that we don't have to be the same to love each other........ Just Agree to Disagree and go on with it. Hell Look at me and Dionne......... I am a wild child that loves to dress and act slutty and she is an amazing child of God...... BUT we never ran out of things to talk about! She is a smart intuitive woman that is grounded and centered in family and crafts and JC (Jesus) Me..... well hell I am just me, a free spirit that thrives on life and people.
I am going to drag Wade and his GirlFriend out tonight I think and I have an investor meeting at noon today (keep your fingers crossed) my deadline is Monday and this time I will realize that if it does not happen it wasn't meant to be. I won't see it as a failure, but a non-accomplishment. That was hard for me to realize that I don't always accomplish.
I struggled so many years growing up to try and be worthy of my Earth Parents love that it took alot of the joy out of my accomplishments, so now I am going to savor the ones that I earned and gracefully let go of the ones that I didn't.
Many Blessings!!!!!!!!
I limit myself to 1 hour aday online.....so please understand that I may not get your emails till the next day.
Special Blessings to Rocky, you stay in my thoughts and heart..... sometimes you can't understand a betrayal but you forgive it... never forget it
Alot of this drains me, but I enjoy it and realize that I am doing good.... cept wanted to strangle Sharon last night when she called at 1am hehehehehe....... our Dear Friend Robin died March 31 and I am sure that she needed someone to talk to that understood...... but I just could not wake up. Now with Debs cancer I know that I am going to have to learn to be 24/7 for my friends. Selfishness and laziness with friendships are not the way to teach true unconditional love.
We went to see Saphire play last night, they are amazing! A truely female empowered group of ladies over 50 playing Blues. hehehehehehe I wanna be them when I grow up.
I have learned on this crazy journey that we don't have to be the same to love each other........ Just Agree to Disagree and go on with it. Hell Look at me and Dionne......... I am a wild child that loves to dress and act slutty and she is an amazing child of God...... BUT we never ran out of things to talk about! She is a smart intuitive woman that is grounded and centered in family and crafts and JC (Jesus) Me..... well hell I am just me, a free spirit that thrives on life and people.
I am going to drag Wade and his GirlFriend out tonight I think and I have an investor meeting at noon today (keep your fingers crossed) my deadline is Monday and this time I will realize that if it does not happen it wasn't meant to be. I won't see it as a failure, but a non-accomplishment. That was hard for me to realize that I don't always accomplish.
I struggled so many years growing up to try and be worthy of my Earth Parents love that it took alot of the joy out of my accomplishments, so now I am going to savor the ones that I earned and gracefully let go of the ones that I didn't.
Many Blessings!!!!!!!!
I limit myself to 1 hour aday online.....so please understand that I may not get your emails till the next day.
Special Blessings to Rocky, you stay in my thoughts and heart..... sometimes you can't understand a betrayal but you forgive it... never forget it
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Ok We had the Positive... now for My Bitching
Larry at Live Oak is still ignoring me and not taking responsibility for his actions...... I know of alot of people that have been hurt there! he stirred up the bees one year and people got stung everywhere (NOT Good at a nudist Resort) then when he was building his new hot tub, people actully fell in...........but they loved the place so much that they didnt want to hurt it........ sad when the people love the place more than the owner does. He knows that I have nothing to lose by suing his ass cause I won't ever go back there and I pray that my friends realize that he does not care about them and Boycott the resort until he starts caring.
OOPs
By the way, when I get really passionate about anything, I get to going too fast and I misspell, does not make me stupid, makes me realize that life is too short for spell check
Good Morning All.... My Ideas on being an Earth Goddess
An Earth Goddess to me is an ever evolving spirit, and yes I believe that there are Earth Gods too.....Not to replace our Heavenly Father, we are after all his Children not his equals.
I have been going thru this majical transformation for awhile now and I am actually seeing that my sisters have been going thru it too and scared to talk to anyone about it since it may appear that you have gone insane!!!! I mean how do you explain that you wake up each morning with a new talent or ability that you didn't have when you went to bed?
I mean EVERY kind of Gift imaginable! Healings, Art, Music, Cooking and most of all Peace!
After being a big woman, my entire life I can now eat anything I want and keep to a healthy size..... Why? Because my knowledge is growing dailey of who I am and what I can offer! I offer my limited knowledge of what our gifts are and what important part we play in saving our world. I saw Kirstie Ally on one of the tabloids the other day and it broke my heart, you see I believe that she is an Earth Goddess that is fighting her transformation. You see I was given a short time to live 4 years ago and I weighed 350 pounds, but thru this transformation I know that I will be here many years and at a healthy size (not skinny) skinny is not what my body wants.
A true Earth Goddess learns the importance of the female orgasm and the role that it plays in our serenity and it is also a huge bonding factor with our mates (not that I have a mate)
A True Earth Goddess begins to Center Herself and realize the importance of great balance and understanding of WHO we Are.... and we never settle.
We are an amazing species, rare, our Fathers Treasure.... We are strong, kind, respectful, and sometimes brutally honest..... We excell in everything, we have a hard time with accepting failure. We have to stay humble and keep greed from taking over our soul.....although I think our basic core is so strong that it is hard to corrupt.
Many Blessings to ALL my Sister Goddesses
I have been going thru this majical transformation for awhile now and I am actually seeing that my sisters have been going thru it too and scared to talk to anyone about it since it may appear that you have gone insane!!!! I mean how do you explain that you wake up each morning with a new talent or ability that you didn't have when you went to bed?
I mean EVERY kind of Gift imaginable! Healings, Art, Music, Cooking and most of all Peace!
After being a big woman, my entire life I can now eat anything I want and keep to a healthy size..... Why? Because my knowledge is growing dailey of who I am and what I can offer! I offer my limited knowledge of what our gifts are and what important part we play in saving our world. I saw Kirstie Ally on one of the tabloids the other day and it broke my heart, you see I believe that she is an Earth Goddess that is fighting her transformation. You see I was given a short time to live 4 years ago and I weighed 350 pounds, but thru this transformation I know that I will be here many years and at a healthy size (not skinny) skinny is not what my body wants.
A true Earth Goddess learns the importance of the female orgasm and the role that it plays in our serenity and it is also a huge bonding factor with our mates (not that I have a mate)
A True Earth Goddess begins to Center Herself and realize the importance of great balance and understanding of WHO we Are.... and we never settle.
We are an amazing species, rare, our Fathers Treasure.... We are strong, kind, respectful, and sometimes brutally honest..... We excell in everything, we have a hard time with accepting failure. We have to stay humble and keep greed from taking over our soul.....although I think our basic core is so strong that it is hard to corrupt.
Many Blessings to ALL my Sister Goddesses
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
My New Photo Shoot
Here are a couple of the new pix that Carla took today, we had a long day.... one of my best friends found out that she has lung cancer today, so I Guess that it is good that I got home to be here with her. So nice that people actually look forward to spending time with me
Morning My Darlings
Gosh I love being home!!!!! My Vegas family has made me feel so welcome and loved, I do miss my Texas family but not the feeling of inadequecies that they gave me.
I went to listen to Blues last night with Wade, Darren, Roxy and Carla.... yes I said Darren and Roxy! and It was a very nice evening. I have learned thru this adventure this year that EVERYONE is Forgiveable except for Deb and Danyella (taking my pets to the shelter was something that I will never forgive that fake Brazilian and 2 faced backstabber) I do miss Rocky though, and I want to forgive him so much, but I can't.
Deb (the good one) and I are opening an entertainment agency, a web cam studio and a swingers club so it will be a busy time. I need to get at least 20K to get it off the ground, so I need to find an investor soon. I want a place that women feel comfortable in, a safe clean environment. Where No means No and your never disrespected or ordered to get in a car with a drunk driver.
Much Love and Many Blessings to Everyone..... Even you Larry
I went to listen to Blues last night with Wade, Darren, Roxy and Carla.... yes I said Darren and Roxy! and It was a very nice evening. I have learned thru this adventure this year that EVERYONE is Forgiveable except for Deb and Danyella (taking my pets to the shelter was something that I will never forgive that fake Brazilian and 2 faced backstabber) I do miss Rocky though, and I want to forgive him so much, but I can't.
Deb (the good one) and I are opening an entertainment agency, a web cam studio and a swingers club so it will be a busy time. I need to get at least 20K to get it off the ground, so I need to find an investor soon. I want a place that women feel comfortable in, a safe clean environment. Where No means No and your never disrespected or ordered to get in a car with a drunk driver.
Much Love and Many Blessings to Everyone..... Even you Larry
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Vegas
Gosh.......finally headed home and it is like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I ran to Texas because I was scared of being alone in Vegas when all this drama began.... now I realize I have been more alone here than I ever would have there. Don't get me wrong people "tried' to be there for me here in Texas.......BUT they didn't want to be. and if you truely love someone it comes with no strings attached. I am going back to Vegas with 5 bucks to my name, but I KNOW I will be ok..... I know that God loves us wild, crazy sinners with all his heart..... because I don't hide behind a church and religion to know that I am a good person.
I love you Dionne for being there for me, you gave and never asked for anything in return.... We agreed to disagree about everything, but you showed me that mutual respect does exsist here.
I love you Wade, because you have always been my burly grumpy shoulder to lean on... That is the reason that I am not afraid to go home!
I love you Chanel for keeping clothes on my back! Wish we wore the same size shoe!!!!
I love you Deb, for the shelter that you have offered me, even without electric i know that I will feel welcomed and loved.......We WILL get that electric back on.
I love you Robert for making sure that when I asked for help you came thru and did not hold it against me or use it on me.
I love you Jeremy, Brandon, and Amanda...... though your hands are tied by bonds that you have no control over...... I know that you love me!
I love you Vegas for being a place that freaks, misfits and immorals can fit in and find true friends that love them.
I know in my heart that I will never willingly return to Texas, I won't come back for any reasons, no illnesses, deaths, marriages, births will draw me back here. Phones are perfect ways to stay in contact
I love you Dionne for being there for me, you gave and never asked for anything in return.... We agreed to disagree about everything, but you showed me that mutual respect does exsist here.
I love you Wade, because you have always been my burly grumpy shoulder to lean on... That is the reason that I am not afraid to go home!
I love you Chanel for keeping clothes on my back! Wish we wore the same size shoe!!!!
I love you Deb, for the shelter that you have offered me, even without electric i know that I will feel welcomed and loved.......We WILL get that electric back on.
I love you Robert for making sure that when I asked for help you came thru and did not hold it against me or use it on me.
I love you Jeremy, Brandon, and Amanda...... though your hands are tied by bonds that you have no control over...... I know that you love me!
I love you Vegas for being a place that freaks, misfits and immorals can fit in and find true friends that love them.
I know in my heart that I will never willingly return to Texas, I won't come back for any reasons, no illnesses, deaths, marriages, births will draw me back here. Phones are perfect ways to stay in contact
Resort Pictures
be warned that in my investigations, that I have found event photos on paysites! Must remember to call Lee and Sandy tonight!
Everyone says that I should do all this under another name to stay safe from the people that I expose.......BUT I believe that you should never hide behind fake names to speak the truth!
Still not reading "pops" emails because I am sure that it is still veiled scare tatics, if I am not affraid of real time threats why be afraid of someone that hides behind fake email addresses.
There are GREAT Nudist and Swingers resorts out there and those are the ones that suffer from these HALL OF SHAME owners.
Everyone says that I should do all this under another name to stay safe from the people that I expose.......BUT I believe that you should never hide behind fake names to speak the truth!
Still not reading "pops" emails because I am sure that it is still veiled scare tatics, if I am not affraid of real time threats why be afraid of someone that hides behind fake email addresses.
There are GREAT Nudist and Swingers resorts out there and those are the ones that suffer from these HALL OF SHAME owners.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Busy
We have had a busy weekend, I got a sponsor for the Eddie Griffin show at Planet Hollywood for T. Roscoe (Hi T!!!!!!) Then found out that my ex-roommate Rick of Spindoll.com had gone to Prison for selling silencers to AFT, On the good side though, that means that the crap in Vegas is settled and my stuff is safe.
I been being my usual curious self and investigating an old case that a man was wrongfully accused and went to prison for. Apparently someone set him up out of business jealousy, and anyone that knows me knows that I don't back down on a story! Injustice is ALWAYS going to catch my eye.... i have that weird second sight about things..... I will give you all alittle insight. Someone got framed for child porn to get his place shut down! Before I leave for Vegas, I am going back out there to do some more investigating and pull guest list!
Well anyway Jose gets out of the hospital tomorrow and I am going to set him down and explain some home truths to him. He is such a nice guy, and I feel that he got handed a raw deal.
The new talk show will air in Sept sometime and I am soooooo excited!!!!!!
I been being my usual curious self and investigating an old case that a man was wrongfully accused and went to prison for. Apparently someone set him up out of business jealousy, and anyone that knows me knows that I don't back down on a story! Injustice is ALWAYS going to catch my eye.... i have that weird second sight about things..... I will give you all alittle insight. Someone got framed for child porn to get his place shut down! Before I leave for Vegas, I am going back out there to do some more investigating and pull guest list!
Well anyway Jose gets out of the hospital tomorrow and I am going to set him down and explain some home truths to him. He is such a nice guy, and I feel that he got handed a raw deal.
The new talk show will air in Sept sometime and I am soooooo excited!!!!!!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Dancing
I miss dancing soooooooo much, soon as I get back to Vegas i want to go Salsa Dancing, There is so much to do in Vegas... I never get bored
Family Get Together
we are having a family get together tomorrow at Dionnes, it has been wonderful staying with her.... we are so much alike but sooooo different at the same time. Both spiritual and loving, but me wild as hell........hehehehe
Anyway, my son and his ex are meeting here tomorrow and i get to see my youngest granddaughter... Yea!!!!!
I pray that this is the last thing on my agenda so I can get back to Vegas! I want to see my families back together and whole ( my kids and grandkids)
I will not ever give up the battles that I have realized affect everyone, and pray that people start fighting back when they are done wrong. Pick your battles, but realize that the Internet is a HUGE weapon! it only takes a couple of complaints on the internet to bring a dishonest business down!
Anyway, my son and his ex are meeting here tomorrow and i get to see my youngest granddaughter... Yea!!!!!
I pray that this is the last thing on my agenda so I can get back to Vegas! I want to see my families back together and whole ( my kids and grandkids)
I will not ever give up the battles that I have realized affect everyone, and pray that people start fighting back when they are done wrong. Pick your battles, but realize that the Internet is a HUGE weapon! it only takes a couple of complaints on the internet to bring a dishonest business down!
Stalking
man this guy from Live oak resort won't stop writng me, but he pretends to be one of the guest there......... Well us folks that realize there are IP addresses know who is who. It is a true shame, I have always loved LOR so much and now it is like so yucky to me........ It was an openminded wonderful playground at one time, but now it is in total emotional neglect.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Healings and Great Gifts!!!!!!!!!
I have been blessed to see miracles in the last few weeks along with all the hardships, miracles from a girl in jail that needed to know that she deserved a second chance, to be the mother and woman she wanted to be..... miracles in seeing a scared young woman reach out to a stranger to not be alone while she was sick in the hospital...miracles in my beautiful family healing ... and hopefully soon the Unity of a complete family with my kiddos, their mates and all the grandkids loveingly becoming one family..... I am blessed in that all my children are strong individuals... and they are strong in their family convictions and beliefs.
Many Blessings
Thanks for all the Text Lisa....... reaching out is a sign of strength that only a REAL Earth Goddess can do
Many Blessings
Thanks for all the Text Lisa....... reaching out is a sign of strength that only a REAL Earth Goddess can do
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
My Number
My number is 817-757-2152 if you want to call with any juicey details, I am going to start exposing businesses that fuck the little guy! Live Oak Resort, Look at your Credit Card bills and see how many bags of Ice that you have been charged for this Year!
The residents of LOR is what keeps it going! Those are the backbone of the place, and the Heart!
The residents of LOR is what keeps it going! Those are the backbone of the place, and the Heart!
Video of Live Oak Resort Event
One of the Ladies that was at Live Oak Resort is sending me a Video from her cell Phone.... I am going to add it here and YouTube
My Weekend at Live Oak Resort In Texas
As Most of you know I am a NUDIST and Lifestylist (not a swinger) Live Oak Resort has always been my FAVORITE Place in the world! The people are great, the place is gorgeous and it was going to be HedoFest............By the end of the Day, I was told to leave with a drunk, mad driver, and then hit by the very same driver!
LMAO........ ya got you realize how this all happened and why I am so very mad! I have been going there for over 6 years and never had one day of bad things happen. This time I go there with a first date (someone that had NEVER gone to a place like that) He had also just got back from IRAQ, well I guess he had drank too much, and caused a few of the ladies to feel uncomfortable, (NO SECURITY) and instead of someone telling him nicely to sober up and leave. The Owner demanded we leave right then or he was calling the police! How do you tell a woman to get in a car with a drunk driver and drive 136 miles home? at 9pm? The guy was thn punched in the mouth by the owner with this knife and it busted his mouth..... he jumped in his car and peeled out hitting me with his car and knocking me into another one! He then ran off the road and thru a bridge. He is in the hospital still today..... so I take it privately to the group and get verbally attacked because I felt that none of this is right!
They all whine and moan about, the security, the over chemicals in the pool and hot tub, and the padding the credit card bills, but they don't have the balls to do anything about it! Well I have the freedom of speech and I have been to many resorts that are excellent and I expect that from any and all of them if they want my money and for me to reccommend them to people I know!
I also believe that a GOOD Nudist Resort should have the owners see naked every once in awhile and maybe be nice to people every once in awhile
I rate this experience at Live Oak Resort in Texas Poor
Email me at earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com if you want me to add the emails that I got
I had great news yesterday
I found a grant yesterday, maybe My Sensual Healing and Wellness Institute will Open soon!!! Yeah!!!!! This has been a powerful journey for me and I pray that I will end up with my dreams finally realized.
couples healing
sexual surrogacy program
weight counseling
wellness counseling
life coaching
gourmet HOME Cooked Meals
REAL Women Counseling............ We are ALL Goddesses
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My Charities of choice are going to be the Desiree Alliance and Habitat for Humanity
couples healing
sexual surrogacy program
weight counseling
wellness counseling
life coaching
gourmet HOME Cooked Meals
REAL Women Counseling............ We are ALL Goddesses
.......................................................
My Charities of choice are going to be the Desiree Alliance and Habitat for Humanity
Monday, August 3, 2009
Pre Paid Legal
I know I said that I was done blogging but I do have one more issue that needs to be dealt with and that Is Pre Paid Legal What a Fucking Joke
I am PrePaid for a YEAR and this company has not helped me one time! I have 6 files and not got help once!
Once was the house On Delaware Ln when I found out that the owners were not making the payments and I was
Once about the Animal Cruelty Charges that Las Vegas Put on me because I didn't have the water bowls filled by 8am and licence.......... how is that animal cruelty? I asked the PrePaid Legal bunch to change the court dates but they didn't! That is part of my April 30th arrest, Plus lost all my pets and home
Then in march I called to leave the conflicker info with my attorney and he did not keep my confidence....... EVEN if I was nutty I deserve proper representaion.
I called to sue the Las Vegas Police department and Jail and launch an internal affairs investigation and Again Pre Paid Legal laughed at me and did nothing,
I also asked that they stop my landlord from doing away with all of my possessions and they did nothing again
I called the one in Texas to find out about setting up a business and they told me how to find someone on the internet!
Now I get hit by a car and they put me on hold and don't come back
What did I pay for? They have many lawsuits because of this and they need to have a different one in EVERY State. but people feel powerless........ NOT me! I will blog your ass into the ground if I get nothing else....... I will get MY voice heard
I am PrePaid for a YEAR and this company has not helped me one time! I have 6 files and not got help once!
Once was the house On Delaware Ln when I found out that the owners were not making the payments and I was
Once about the Animal Cruelty Charges that Las Vegas Put on me because I didn't have the water bowls filled by 8am and licence.......... how is that animal cruelty? I asked the PrePaid Legal bunch to change the court dates but they didn't! That is part of my April 30th arrest, Plus lost all my pets and home
Then in march I called to leave the conflicker info with my attorney and he did not keep my confidence....... EVEN if I was nutty I deserve proper representaion.
I called to sue the Las Vegas Police department and Jail and launch an internal affairs investigation and Again Pre Paid Legal laughed at me and did nothing,
I also asked that they stop my landlord from doing away with all of my possessions and they did nothing again
I called the one in Texas to find out about setting up a business and they told me how to find someone on the internet!
Now I get hit by a car and they put me on hold and don't come back
What did I pay for? They have many lawsuits because of this and they need to have a different one in EVERY State. but people feel powerless........ NOT me! I will blog your ass into the ground if I get nothing else....... I will get MY voice heard
It is Hell being a Burden on People
Since I became homeless I have prided myself on trying to help EVERY where I stayed... I cook, clean, watch kids, keep quiet and docile............... But Still a burden. NO one cared that I got hit by a cra this weekend and bruised all over... they care that I left an ice chest (cooler) in the car that went to the shop.
You know I am coming to expect this and accept it, but it hurts. people take petty things and make huge things out of it just to have an excuse to throw you away, or even forget the guilts that they already have towards you.
In December 2008 I was in the Hospital in ICU with a 10% chance to live..... how many of my family flew out to make sure that I was getting proper care?
In 2006 I had pancreatitis and was in ICU in Dallas......... 60 miles from my family.... how many came? You guessed it..... ZIP, Zero, No ONE
2006 11 breast surgeries because of a botched surgery in Costa Rica at Scott and White in Temple Texas 22 miles from family......... and the grand total this time......2 my son and my kennel worker!
I have been emotionally on my own my entire life, so why is it bothering me so much right now? Because this is the FIRST time that I have felt helpless in my own skin. I walk on eggshells to not piss anyone off and to keep a roof over my head, I have become a robot to please... Well Fuck that.
You know I can go to a church and beg for Charity, but I won't use a church to keep a roof over my head by pretending that I believe all of their faith, I have the mental capablities to have done illegal things to stay afloat, but I didn't. We choose our path and I guess that I chose to be humiliated, shunned and pushed rather than use charity wrongly or steal.
I did ask friends for help, but their ideas of help was kind words....... See these are the friends that would buy me shit that I would NEVER wear, bring me bottles of wine, pay for my CL post but to help me get back on my feet that was just uncalled of and not happening.
I know I sound bitter today and maybe it is MY time to grieve...... you see since this all started all I have been doing is to try a fix everybody......... IT IS NOT MY JOB TO HEAL THE WORLD! I needed this weekend to get away, let my hair down and be drama free and Maybe to get LAID (where I would enjoy it that is) None of this happened.....
Cold Hard Reality Set in.. there is no good left in the world, there are no miracles left and I am tired of the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I am ready to start working a friggin street corner and say Fuck Everyone........ now isnt that the proper responce for someone that has been crushed over and over for the last few months? Sorry to disappoint, I still love all of you and cast MANY Blessings yours way
Carla Holland-Strange
You know I am coming to expect this and accept it, but it hurts. people take petty things and make huge things out of it just to have an excuse to throw you away, or even forget the guilts that they already have towards you.
In December 2008 I was in the Hospital in ICU with a 10% chance to live..... how many of my family flew out to make sure that I was getting proper care?
In 2006 I had pancreatitis and was in ICU in Dallas......... 60 miles from my family.... how many came? You guessed it..... ZIP, Zero, No ONE
2006 11 breast surgeries because of a botched surgery in Costa Rica at Scott and White in Temple Texas 22 miles from family......... and the grand total this time......2 my son and my kennel worker!
I have been emotionally on my own my entire life, so why is it bothering me so much right now? Because this is the FIRST time that I have felt helpless in my own skin. I walk on eggshells to not piss anyone off and to keep a roof over my head, I have become a robot to please... Well Fuck that.
You know I can go to a church and beg for Charity, but I won't use a church to keep a roof over my head by pretending that I believe all of their faith, I have the mental capablities to have done illegal things to stay afloat, but I didn't. We choose our path and I guess that I chose to be humiliated, shunned and pushed rather than use charity wrongly or steal.
I did ask friends for help, but their ideas of help was kind words....... See these are the friends that would buy me shit that I would NEVER wear, bring me bottles of wine, pay for my CL post but to help me get back on my feet that was just uncalled of and not happening.
I know I sound bitter today and maybe it is MY time to grieve...... you see since this all started all I have been doing is to try a fix everybody......... IT IS NOT MY JOB TO HEAL THE WORLD! I needed this weekend to get away, let my hair down and be drama free and Maybe to get LAID (where I would enjoy it that is) None of this happened.....
Cold Hard Reality Set in.. there is no good left in the world, there are no miracles left and I am tired of the weight of the world on my shoulders.
I am ready to start working a friggin street corner and say Fuck Everyone........ now isnt that the proper responce for someone that has been crushed over and over for the last few months? Sorry to disappoint, I still love all of you and cast MANY Blessings yours way
Carla Holland-Strange
Foreclosures
Now I have told alot of you about my Charity Ideas about Foreclosures, wish I knew if anyone actually was following thru with them, email me and at least tell me ok? earthgoddesscarla@gmail.com
Developers grab some of these Apartment complexes and turn them into government houseing
Developers grab some of these Apartment complexes and turn them into government houseing
Now Acceptable Discussions
I am bruised all over from getting hit with the car, walked in my my daughter in law is mad at my son because I lost their cooler in the car that Jose was driving, He drove it off a bridge by the way. So more turmoil, it is my favorite day of the Week ... I love Mondays!!!! see I am a workaholic and Mondays were always my FAVORITE day (busiest day of the Week)
One of my NEW Super Powers is that I notice great business deals (but I think I always did that) I am looking and speculating all the time about the worth and what can be done with alot of these properties. I need to start a development company to help some of these places take off! I found 2 great deals this weekend and God knows I have no funds.
There is One that will make someone Millions within a VERY Short time Frame,,, and I have a refurb crew that can make it happen fast! Not to mention my network and marketing abilities! So for about a million dollar investment, it will pay itself off and be in the profit margin within a year!
Second is a little Mom and Pop type operation, but it will take someone that will listen to me to make it work! i have a couple in mind, but how do you tell someone that you have a vision of success just for those 2 people?
I don't know why I can barely talk to someone and understand exactly what their calling is all about, I don't know why I feel their pains and hopes so strong, but I do.
I think I am going to put this to the Test Today and Call Paloma in Rosebud and Tell her about the little Mom and Pop business that is perfect for them. She has always been so kind and she told me her dream of this very thing 2 months ago.
One of my NEW Super Powers is that I notice great business deals (but I think I always did that) I am looking and speculating all the time about the worth and what can be done with alot of these properties. I need to start a development company to help some of these places take off! I found 2 great deals this weekend and God knows I have no funds.
There is One that will make someone Millions within a VERY Short time Frame,,, and I have a refurb crew that can make it happen fast! Not to mention my network and marketing abilities! So for about a million dollar investment, it will pay itself off and be in the profit margin within a year!
Second is a little Mom and Pop type operation, but it will take someone that will listen to me to make it work! i have a couple in mind, but how do you tell someone that you have a vision of success just for those 2 people?
I don't know why I can barely talk to someone and understand exactly what their calling is all about, I don't know why I feel their pains and hopes so strong, but I do.
I think I am going to put this to the Test Today and Call Paloma in Rosebud and Tell her about the little Mom and Pop business that is perfect for them. She has always been so kind and she told me her dream of this very thing 2 months ago.
Being Nutz is OK
You know that having odd thoughts and behaviors is ok as long as your a grounded good person, I told my whole family about this chip thing in May 2009 and no one believed me, then it was on "Another World" in Paul Stienbecks brain and my MOM believed him! Now there is a story on it on Ripley's Believe it Or NOT....... and again the world will believe that.
BUT a common person speaks up and says that they know their body and can feel all of the changes, and we are called crazy. I can tell you when I need sodium, pottassium, when my bp is spiking, irregular heartbeats......EVERYTHING that my body is doing I know! Just call me Bionic Girl
BUT a common person speaks up and says that they know their body and can feel all of the changes, and we are called crazy. I can tell you when I need sodium, pottassium, when my bp is spiking, irregular heartbeats......EVERYTHING that my body is doing I know! Just call me Bionic Girl
Saturday, August 1, 2009
To Contact Me
You may Text me at 817-757-2152 I am always out of phone minutes, but you can text me if you have any jobs or resources that might help me out of this place..... Don't get me wrong I love my kiddos, but I dont fit in here in Texas, Can't take a free spirit and lock her in a cage....... it is like clipping a birds wings
continued
Anyway Long story short these people moved in and took over my world because I was too busy zoning on the computer to notice that they were doing some shadey stuff in my world! They started a fight one night and then told cops that I beat them up...... me a size 8 female beat up two men.... yeah right. So then I go to jail! while I am in jail they put a restraining order on me to not go back to my OWN home........ so no clothes no money no home no car no place to go! With an email list of over 1000 people only one person helped me! It was like all the help that I had given thruout the years meant nothing!
And like I have said before..... I will be the same person in the end
And like I have said before..... I will be the same person in the end
Clarifying Why I lost Everything
I just realized that most of you don't know me and I bet when I say that I lost everything you must think I am a gambler, NOPE. Well not in that way... I gamble on Human Worth! You see I have the bad habit of taking in strays, animals and people. It is a habit that cost me alot on Vegas, but to be honest I can't say that I wouldn't do it again.
Well this time a TS Talent and her Boyfriend Rocky needed a place to stay, I had kicked her out earlier in 2008... but I totaly fell in love with Rocky (he was the gay son I always wanted) to be continued
Well this time a TS Talent and her Boyfriend Rocky needed a place to stay, I had kicked her out earlier in 2008... but I totaly fell in love with Rocky (he was the gay son I always wanted) to be continued
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